Things aint really going my way right now.
Its like, the minute i got out of KL, things seemed better, i felt like a was leaving everything behind, and it felt really good.
And yesterday, the minute we got into KL, i felt all the dread inching its way back into me. Injected back into my veins. Its funny how KL can make you feel that way.

Took the whole week off school, i miss it quite abit, seeing as i have nothing to do with myself today. Kuantan was a healthy choice. A long deserved mental vacation. I think all i honestly need is another one of those.
KL aint doing no good for me lately, too much drama, i cant deal.
Been doing alot of running around lately, im not sure if im running from, if you catch my drift.
Sometime soon, i think imma head up somewhere secluded, sleep on the beach, and pretend im mute. Deaf too prolly.
I need a getaway, like no shit.
All this is so overwhelming.
Was supposed to head back to aussie with elaine, the rents think i needa change in atmosphere. Though it was bollocks at first, but it doesnt sound all that bad anymore. Sounds pretty welcoming compared to what i deal with here, and at least theyve got good weather, kinda.
I dont know if its the meds talking. Been gulping down cough syrup like crazy, trying to rid of the itch. The music isnt exactly helping my cause either. I dunno, im out of the whole circle for awhile. Cant be bothered with the outside world for abit, i needa focus on me for abit, ive neglected myself long enough already. Procrastinating tryna fix myself up. Its weird, cos i though this year would be smooth sailing, but its actually alot worse compared to last year. Eight months in, only.
I hardly know what im talking bout lately, it all seems to fly by, a blur.
Maybe thats the insomnia. Its been acting up again lately. Before Kuantan, to be exact. Didnt think much of it, thought it was from the excitement. But its alot worse now. Hardly got any rest last night, and my skin's still a little raw from the tossing i did. I could use some sleeping pills, ive run out. Muscle relaxants maybe, they work.
Acceptance - So contagious, heartbreaking. Yup. Still not as over it as i thought i was. And now its being used as bait. Yippee, gooodluck with that. Maybe she'll be alright for you. Its tiring as hell.
Im freezing, and the fans not even on. Pure exhaustion maybe. Dunno.
I dont need all this shit, not right now anyways.
Looking in for a transfer, need a change of environment, educationwise. Maybe international, just for a semester.
Havent really talked about it much.
My ass is numb. Been sitting too long. Should stop thinking maybe. Or keep thinking.. ?
L&M's over a cuppa coffee, only thing keeping me semi awake, i guess.
Mum and Annie, talking about exhubs outside, and aussie, as both exhubs are dickweeds, and Annies moving to aussie.
Felling like im floating on the milkyway. But still no passion. Used to do my best writing at times like these, i know ive said this a million times, but i have no passion left in my body. Completely drained, honest.

Do call, ive got lots to say to you. Well no, ive got lots of things to keep quiet from you. Make sense ? No, thought so. But what ever does ?

And pixie,
I know you dig so contagious. Dont spend too long on the milkyway, some of us need you down here.

Bitchinia,
I could use a talk, call.