So, hello.

No, I didn't die. (:

I just don't see the point in going on and on about the mundane details of my daily life.

Go live your own lives, and stop living vicariously, losers. :D

Hiiiiiiiiii.

Didn't realize I've been neglecting this damn thing for so long already.
Honestly, I can't be fucked to update yall on every little detail, and it's highly unlikely that it's going to happen. EVER.
Hahaha.

Worked things out with Mum, and we both have an understanding now. (:
Yes, I'm back home.

Heading out in abit for Farouq's surprise thingiemajig. Yaaaaaay !

p/s : Once again, you've proven to be even more pathetic that I thought possible. Get the fuck over yourself. (:

I had a kickass time lastnight.
After strutting my stuff on the catwalk, we partied all night long.
I won't elaborate anymore, as doing so would not do it justification.

Listening to the amazing tracks composed by the amazing boy who calls me Killa.
Mad love, cutie. (:

So, I'm finally gonna sit my ass down, and update yall on the few weeks.
Be happy that my procrastinating tendencies haven't kicked in, or I'll be doing something more productive, like sleeping. Which I am seriously lacking.

06 / 06 / 09.
Headed over to Frans place cos I got sick of shit at home. She wasn't there, and neither were her olds, so Mike and Ryan had the whole house to themselves, and it was a total bachelor mess. Farah, Shannya and Reuben came over, so we all bummed alil before Ryans friend, Hady came. Got dressed and headed over to KL. Ended up sitting at the side of the road, knocking back a few beers and wondering where we could get come hugeass cardboard boxes.
Chilled at MCircle till 1ish, just partying it up. Khal and Khiara came, and I swear to god, Khia's just gorgeous. Sped off to Skybar to see Pasha and Yumi, cos he was leaving for Iran the next day. Had a few drinks before heading back to MCircle, cos Skybar was just too chilled for my liking.
Headed back to Frans at around 2.30, took a shower and jumped into a cab to Pasha's place.

07 / 06 / 09.
Slept for an equivalence of two hours, and did nothing productive all day long. Spent the day watching Family Guy in my oversized tees.

08 / 06 / 09.
Slept for a few hours only to wake up to a note from Fran telling me to keep my evening free as I was to follow her to meet some chick. Headed back to L3 to grab some stuff, and then had dinner at McD's in Mont Kiara. Met up with Charmaine and Andrew, before hopping into the car and going back to the house.
Bummed and talked for abit, then Fran and Ryan went to see Angelo.
Dropped Andrew and Charmaine back home, and on the way over, I realised I had forgotten to put on shoes. It was hilarious, I swear.
Barely slept the entire night, cos we kept coming up with such stupid shit, and laughing ourselves into conciousness.

09 / 06 / 09.
Chilled out all day, and then headed to see Charmaine, Charline and Andrew. Bummed around Mont Kiara before heading to Hartamas. Sat at Square and had a waffles drowned in chocolate syrup, bananas, nuts, ice cream and cookies. Bloody orgasms all over the place. Bumped into Adieb and James before leaving. Charline had left, but her brother wouldn't stop calling Charmaine's phone, so I made the biiiig mistake of picking up;
Me. Charline's brother.
"Um, hello ?"
"*screams in french*"
"Scuse me, it's not -"
"*screams summore in french*"
"OI MAN, it's not Charline ! She's already gone to meet up with you aite ?"
"Oh, er, then who am I speaking with ?"
"Manda, pleasure to meet you."
"I'm gonna kill her."
"Don't do that. Who would you yell at in french ?"
"Oh, I'm gonna skin her, make a jacket out of her, and sell her in Thailand."
"Mm, how attractive."

Shudda seen Frans and Charmaines faces. Met her dad, then headed over to her apartment. Played on the swings, and we oulled a spidermonkey !

10 / 06 / 09.
Slept the whole day through, cos I knew I'd be needing the energy for that night.
Headed to KL at 8ish, and met up with Mon and all for their birthday thingie. Had no bloody idea where I was, so asked Sarah to come get me, as I was getting the rape vibe from everything with a penis. Ran into their arms before heading to this dinky place at the side of the road to shisha.
It was really good catching up with all of them, Sam, Scott, Kieran, Riley, John, some Korean kid, Sarah, Mon, Lyza, Lizzie, Alice and Afzaa, eventhough they were almost completely wasted already.
Headed to Saylon Bar (or whatever it's called) and drank ourselves stupid. Scott and Lyza kept buying me shots, and I swear, I lost count at 5.
After tickling some tonsils, and flashing all of em my stripped undies, I was dared to make out with 3 different people, only ONE of them had a penis.
Stumbled into Cloth & Clef, already completely wasted, and immediately spotted Kraft. Said my hellos to familiar faces and went to find Pixie. Bumped into Zaid, Farid, Adam and so many other people on the way over, and it was so good seeing SuperWeed after almost a year !
Had a beer with Pixie while waiting for me VS.
Them boys freestyles crazy skilled, no joke. I was well impressed. Had a few more drinks before heading over to a friends place.

11 / 06 / 09.
Reached the house at around 3, and slept the afternoon away. Figured it was a good idea to regain some energy after all my funruns.

12 / 06 / 09.
Slept at 3.15am, only to be rudely awoken 15minutes later to get into the shower so we could go to Pudu to pick up Ryans friend, Travis.
Reached Pudu at 4summin, and bummed around like degenerates for almost an hour while waiting for his bus to arrive.
Walked around looking for him, only to get the shock of our lives when he jumped over the barrier and screamed, "Hey !"
Was a lil stunned when I first set eyes on him, cos he was nothing like what I expected him to be.
Recovered enough to go to a nearby mamak and have some goood ol Milo Panas and Winstons.
Talked for awhile before jumping into a cab, and I swear, his gorgeous southern accent is to die for, and he actually says, "Ohmygoodness." I had to stop myself from smiling so much, cos it actually was starting to hurt my face. He was very amused by my Batman tee, so to tickle him abit, I did the actions too. While sitting down at the mamak, there was this ridiculously annoying guy, playing his stupid fucking guitar and his stupid fucking harmonica. I swear to god, nobody should live with such torture.
Jumped into a cab, and headed back to Frans place.
Booked him a room at the Hilton PJ, and jumped into a cab over there. Had to sit in the lobby for almost half an hour, being bullied by him cos there were some technical difficulties with his reservation.
Finally got to the room, and collapsed on the bed. I swear to god, it was so comfy, I almost died on the spot.
After freshening up, Fran dropped us off at the LRT station, and off we went to KLCC.
I was supposed to be his tourguide, but it was as much as an adventure for him as it was for me, seeing as I didn't know what the hell I was doing the entire time on the train.
Got to KLCC in one piece, and walked around aimlessly before heading outside to the fountain. After taking about a million pictures, he decided it was time to do some serious shopping.
Being around such a goodlooking guy, if looks could kill, I'd be deader than a dead person.
Headed into Isetan to get him some cologne, and after being drowned in about 600 different scents, we narrowed it down to two; Ferrari and Davidoff.
Decided on the Davidoff because I don't think it'll ever smell better on anyone.
Oh, did the trannies enjoy that boys presence. His reaction was so adorable, I couldn't help but laugh the entire time.
After getting a pair of flipflops with bottle openers on the sole(!) , and getting a niiice tub of Nutella cos he'd never experienced the wonders of Nutella, we hopped onto the train in hopes of getting to Aloha in time for happy hour.
Decided against it after seeing the jam along the whole stretch, and headed back to the hotel.
Stopped at a nearby mamak, and introduced him to Roti Bom. I can't even begin to tell you how much he loved that diabetes inducing thing.
Walked back to the hotel and chilled. Fran picked me up, and then we headed to see her girl.
Chilled at her place for awhile, thinking that Luqman was coming to get me to head over to MCircle.
Half an hour of waiting later, the bastard texts saying that he made other plans. Was fucking fuming, and vowed never to make plans with him again.
Ryan had already left, and everybody else was already leaving, so I got Rubesh to walk me to OldTown to meet up with the boys at some dinky bar. Sat around, having a few drinks while listening to music that made me miss guitarandharmonicaguy, and that's saying something.
Got a few beers and headed back to the hotel. Talked and laughed, and got shoved into the buttcrack of the two beds countless times, so much so, I just decided to stay in the middle.
I decided it was high time to crack out the Nutella and show Travis what he'd been missing all these years. Loaded a spoonful of Nutella into his mouth, and the look on his face was priceless.
But after minutes of munching on nothing but that, it escaladed into a fucking Nutella fight.
I just threw Nutella at everybody, and after 10minutes, the whole room was covered in chocolate. Ryan actually dragged me by the neck into the bathroom. The beds, the floor, the walls, the bathroom, EVERYTHING was just covered in Nutella.
Filled up the tub and hopped in. Ended up completely crashing at the hotel.

13 / 06 / 09.
Woke up at the buttcrack of dawn, and headed to State for brekkie.
Had a nice chilled out day, cos Fran and Ryan were both sick.
Bummed around the house abit, before getting dressed, and picking Travis up.
Piled into the car, and headed into KL. Walked to a mamak nearby and had some dindin. I made Travis eat Cheese Naan. That's right, rub your tummies, mafakkas.
Ryan tried to get him to order 'Nasi Goreng Pepek.'
Fran and I almost died fucking laughing.
Made our way to Starhill afterwards, for the grand launching of Supafly. We were also on the guestlist for MOS, so we had to leave by 11.
Khal was there too, and kept tryna get my attention but I kept acting like he wasn't there.
Finally got in 40minutes late, and had a few drinks. Booty shook for a lil while before sending the boys off to MOS, decided to head back to MCircle, and it was Justins and Satishs big event, and I figured I owed it to them after all they did for me.
Got stuck in such a bad mafakking jam, and only made it back to MCircle at around 1. Partied my ass off, and booty shook with everybody.
I was taking a breather behind the console with Satish and Kraft when this chick tries to chat me up;
Me. Chick. Satish.
"Hey girl. I saw you on the flo, I swear, you are so fucking hot. *puts hand on my waist. Where you from ?"
"I'm local, babe."
"Scuse me, please step out of the DJ console before security is forced to remove you."
"Why ? She's in here."
"First of all, she's the muthafucken VIP. Secondly, she allllways get the party started, not you. So get the fuck out."

I had to stop myself from laughing, but I did promise her a booty shake after.
Partied with my bwoys till it was time to close up, we then proceeded to have our own lil party.
Them bwoys popped the champagne and popped out the brownies.
Headed out at 4.30ish, and hopped into the car towards the Hilton.
Had a good long talk with my boy on the way over, so much so, we overshot the turning and ended up at Sunway. Sat in the hotel carpark and talked some more before I decided to head upstairs. Threw my arms around my boy, and gave him the manja-est hug I could muster, which made him pull back after he had his fill and say,
"I don't care what they say about you, or what's with the whole big girl front, but underneath all that, yous a lovey dovey mothafucka. I fucken love that."

Said our goodnights, and made my way to 620.
I don't know how much I drank, or if someone slipped me summin, cos I felt really terrible after. Maybe it was just my body telling me I needed some rest. I kept stumbling all over the place, and Travis had to look after me. Fucken passed out 20minutes later.

14 / 06 / 09.
Got Fran to send me to L3 at 10ish, and got ready for Baby Jaeme's baptism. Kept falling asleep throughout mass. Headed to JayaOne after for lunch. Was fucken ravenous, but couldn't bring myself to eat anything. Had to force some food down my throat to please Daddy.
Needed a ciggie really bad, and walked around tryna find a 7E. Instead, I stumbled onto this reptile thingie, where I fell inlove with the pythons. Couldn't help myself, so I picked a Albino up, and wrapped it around myself.
Yalls have no idea how much I wanted to take that home.
Reached L3 at 5ish, and bummed around at home for awhile.
Got a text from all three of my favourite people at once, asking me to get ready so I could go to Bangsar to have a swim with them.
No more than 20minutes later, I was sitting in the backseat of Frans car, with the biggest smile on my face.
Halfway through, the window got stuck, AGAIN. Travis tried to fix it, but ended up pulling the whole damn thing out of the car door.
Got to Yumi's apartment, and headed straight for the pool, which was fucken freezing. For such a nice place, it's got a pretty shitty pool. The minute I stepped out of the water, my lips turned blue. I'm not kidding. Them three wouldn't stop laughing at me, so I'm gonna blame my pneumonia on them.
Had some goood mee goreng at the nearby mamak, and ordered Travis a coconut.
I had so much fun, scraping the flesh out of the coconut and everything, and we sang that song,
"You put the lime in the coconut, you drink it all up.. blablabla."
We actually did put a lime in the coconut, and it tasted so gooood.
Reached L3 at 3ish, and crashed.

15 / 06 / 09.
Dragged my zombie ass out of bed for the first day of school in 3weeks for me. I was so exhausted, I could barely function properly. Slept through the first 5periods, and woke up feeling so much better.
Got home and bummed, turning down all offers to go out.
Travis wanted to spend some time with me before he went to Singapore, so he came over at 8ish.
Sat by the pool till 3am, just talking about our childhoods, and how it was for us growing up in such different places.
I swear, that boy has the most beautiful eyes, and the most gorgeous accent. I just wanna sit somewhere with him, stare into his eyes and listen to him talk, even if it is jbberish. Makes me smile even thinking about it.
Telling him about all the turbulence at L3 made me feel so out of character, but I loved it, with his arms around me and soft kisses every few seconds. Suddenly, he picks me up and steps into the pool. We then proceeded to hijakc the mens bathroom.
Called a cab at 3ish, and went back with a huge grin on my face.

16 / 06 / 09.
Couldn't fucking wake up, so ended up sleeping in till 1summin. Fran calls 20minutes later, and tells me to get dressed. Hopped into the car, and headed to the nearby carwash. After we finished doing up the car, we headed to her campus to grab a bite.
She dropped me off at the LRT station, and I headed all the way to the bus terminal, and sat at the nearby mamak, waiting for Ryan and Travis.
Yup, I actually took the train all the way to Pudu, to see Travis for 10minutes before he headed off to Singapore.
Walked back to the LRT station with Ryan and headed back to my place.
Sat by the pool till 10ish, and had to stifle my giggles when Aunty Siti kept hitting on him.
Crashed at 11.

17 / 06 / 09.
Was supposed to get some cash from my trustfund, but Father refused to give it to me.
Ended up in a screaming match in the car, outside of school. I was literally fucking shaking with rage, that I couldn't breathe proper. The urge to smash his head into the window was overwhelming, but I kept myself calm till I got back to L3.
Talked to Ma, got my money and split. I couldn't stand being in the same vicinity as him any longer.
Needed a way to calm me down, so I walked all the way to the federal highway and flagged a cab to Frans place.
Had the hardest time waking Michael up, cos both Ryan and I wanted some icekacang and cendol. Mmm, tickle my tastebuds.
Got home, and helped to paint the house. Fran came home, and off we went to pick Charz up for dindins at Hartamas. Wolfed down my teppanyaki as I was starving, result of not eating a full meal for over two days.
Had a meeting with Satish about a job for Ryan, and a job for me. So we were in Subang by 9.30. Chilled at the studio with Satish and Alvin.
Reached L3 at 12ish, and crashed.

.. so there you have it.
My god knows how many days worth of updates. I'm honestly sure this won't be the end of it, as I've got a full weekend ahead.


p / s: I don't want you to leave, cos you're not exactly a train or busride away.
I don't wanna like you, cos you'll be gone before the month is over.
When I'm with you, I'm so happy.
When you hold my hand, or kiss my forehead, it makes me wanna go everywhere and anywhere with you.

Home.
And my chest hurts so bad, cos honestly, the loneliness is starting to seep in like crazy.
I want to disappear.

Still at Frans.
It's highly unlikely I'll be staying at my place for the rest of the week, just been running home every now and again to grab some shit.
Partyin it up, massive.
Hopefully I'll catch you kids around KL or summin tonight.
Hoping to catch my boys tonight. (;

I am now gonna go grab me some bacooooooooon.

Been chilling with Mike and Ryan for the past three days, and I have just woken up from a good long overdue nights rest. :D

I highly doubt I'll be going home today, but when I do, expect updates about my kickass nights. :D
Kraft is hotstuff, I'd tap that fo sho.

Manda, out !

It feels weird coming home so early, man.

04 / 06 / 09.
Hadn't planned on staying home as Chello was going to PD, and yalls know home is the last place I wanna be, right ?
Stuffed my shit into my happybacky, hopped into the car with Fran at 11, and sped off to Pyramid.
Had teppanyaki for lunch, which left my tummy very happy, though buncet.
Realised we hadn't made any plans whatsoever, so we decided to head over to Inked, which has become like a halfwayhouse for us. I tell you, I'm there so much that I know where everything is.
Can you imagine, Fran and I sitting there from 1 till almost 8.
Yea, we cleaned the place up, and made friends with everybody who came in.
I tell you, Louis is a funny mafakka.
Bummed around for abit, and then decided to call it a day after going all around Asian Avenue looking for dildos. Yea, we actually did that. It was honestly quite hilarious.
Headed back to Fran's place, thinking that Justin and Satish would be picking me up from there. Justin had a lastminute cancellation, so my plans got fucked too.
Saravanan called, asking to go out for a few drinks.
He picked me up, and we headed off to the Cobra Club.
Had waaaay too fucking much to drink, and it didn't help that the rugby players kept the drinks coming.
Got him to drop me off at Caprices place, again.
Syahid, Epy, Painadol, Zaid and some other dude was there.
And guess who else ?
RABIA, mafakka. Was totally surprised to see her, and swept her into a biiiig hug.
Ended up just chilling at the studio, and yalls know I donned the boxers again. (;

05 / 06 / 09.
Ended up not sleeping the whole night, yet again. My sleep routine is so fucked up, it's not even funny.
Decided to be useless, and did some cleaning. And then I took a freakishly cold shower. I'm more than likely to get pneumonia now.
Went to the nearby mamak to get us some breakfast, and then packed up.
Called Fran and asked her to come get me, and was home by 1.30.

Was talking to VS online, and she was hungry for some Hor Fun. :D
She and Lyn picked me up, and we were at OldTownWhiteCoffee by 2.30. Talked for abit, and then came back to my place for a swim.
Fuck, I love spending time with my girls. (:
Planning on heading over to Inked to get VS's tattoo retouched sometime soon.
I think I spend too much time there.

Was supposed to go for this church thingamabob, but I got too lazy.
And guess who just called me ?
Father Simon.
I tell you, I got the shock of my mafakking life.

I currently have no plans.
I'm waiting for Justin to get back to me.
I dislike waiting with a fucking passion.

I had a very good wake up call this morning.

Woke up to Sa banging on my door with evertyhing she had in here. Rolled out of bed all grumpy, only to find my stupid white boy standing out there, with the most awkward look on his face.
Gave his the stinkiest face I have, and crawled under the covers.
Had a few ciggies and caught up, before heading over to MidValley to pay my phone bill.
Finally managed to get some cash off Mother, but blew it all on two months worth of calls and texts.
Yea, so I'm broke again. Joy unbounded.
Walked around for a little while, before getting a booth at Italiannies and having a few beers.
I know, we're such alcoholics, drinking at 11am.
Hopped into a cab at 12ish, and came back to my place.
The boy had a History paper, and claimed he was too lazy to go.
Forced him into a cab, and saw him off. (:

Was supposed to head over to Inked later today, but I can't be fucked, cos I'm waiting for Chello :D:D:D:D:D.

Despite all the shit I'm going through, I'm one helluva happy kid.


31 / 05 / 09.
Ma's at Kuantan, so I had the whole apartment to myself.
Walked out after yet another tiff with Mother, and locked myself at Ma's for the whole afternoon.
Was talking to Caprice, and he asked me to head over to his office to keep him company, and to stayover. Called Justin and asked him to send me there.
Had to sit at the fucking mamak for two and a half hours, cos he was in a meeting and I technically don't have a home.
Bummed with the boys at the mamak till 1ish, and then hopped into the car with Justin.
The ride over was funny, and long. Talked about the most random shit, and went around in circles a million times before we realised we had driven by the office 6 TIMES.
Said my goodbyes to Justin and headed upstairs.
Sat around, and met some of his boys; Shah, Syahid, Po & Zaid.
Headed uptown and walked around cos Syahid needed shorts. Twas pretty fucken awesome being out with em cos I felt well looked after. *bigcheesygrin.
They had this hugeass iguana, snakes and all this weird shit on sale, which is pretty fucken coo, if you ask me.
The boys wanted to bum at Rasta, but being 3am and all, it was closed, so we headed over to Hartamas.
Got back to the studio at 4ish, and had a few drinks. Shah is helluva funny. He asks the weirdest questions, and does the strangest things.
Syahid, not knowing any better, shut the glass door. Turns out, the door's broke and can't be opened. Spent about a half hour tryna get the damn thing to open, and finally gave up cos it was obvious that nothing was gonna work.
Threw on my boxers and my oversized shirt, and did my happy boxer dance.
Had way too much sugar (and alcohol) running through my veins, so I was hopping around like I was on a fucking trampoline or something.

Random conversations throughout the night;
Shah. Syahid. Caprice. Me. Po. Zaid.
"I'm sorry, man. I didn't know."
"Is okeh. Relaxx. Is okehhhhh."
"*turns around, about to tell Shah to shut the fuck up.*"
"*lies flat on his face, and wiggles around like a fish.*"

"*crawls under table.*"
"Shah, ko buat ape doeh ?"
"Aku tengah tido ni."
"Takle tido sane la."
"Go away ! This is my home !"

"Weyh, ape name die ?"
"Sarah Amanda Mcmachon."
"Jangan tipu aku laaa, tak lawak."
"Sape tipu ngko ?"
"Oh, ye ke ? Okay, *turns to me. Sarah.. ape aku nak tanye eh ?"

"*sits at his computer.* Fuck. Fuck. Fuuuuuuuuuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuckfuckfuckfuck."

"What race are you ?"
"Eurasian."
"Ape ?"
"Serani la bodo."
"HUH ? Nasrani ?!"

"Weyh, nape Po tido dalam tandas doeh ?!"
"Aku ade kat sini la bodo."
"Ye la ! Tu tandas weyh !"
"Ni soundroom la."
"Jap, I nak kencing. *unzips pants in soundroom.*"
"Weyh weyh weyh ! Bodo, tu soundroom la !"

I can barely remember half the things we did, I think cos my brain's just too goddamn exhausted. I just remember falling asleep on the floor at 9ish, and waking up at around 10. Yes, in the morning.

01 / 06 / 09.
Had lunch at a nearby mamak, whilst Caprice went to meet up with his brother.
Headed over to some chick's place cos Caprice had to finish shooting his viddy, so we sat around, waiting in the car.
The boys wanted to watch a movie after the shoot, so we headed to the Curve and got tickets for Terminator.
Chilled at the pool/karaoke place, pleased to see Nehnette and her daddy there. Talked to my gaybuddy whilst the boys karaoked. I tell you, there was this dude in one of the cubicles, who sang like he was being raped. I couldn't help myself from laughing, and almost wet my pants.

Got our munchies and settled into our seats. The movie was pretty fucken awesome, eventhough Arnold Schwarzenegger scares the living shit outta me. Kept almost jumping outta my chair, cos I kept freaking out. Ended up burying my face in Caprice's hoodie.
Could barely walk after, result of sitting in a fetal position throughout the whole movie. Walked around the Curve for a little while, and then headed to Ikea cos the boys wanted hotdogs. Couldn't help but smile, remembering how I practically used to live in Ikea when we first moved to Pantai cos we were there so much.
Headed to Rasta cos they boys wanted to eat AGAIN. Throughout the whole sitdown, Caprice and Zaid kept talking about owning each other's asses at pingpong, and actually made plans to play that night itself.
Ended up going back to the studio, and had our own little private partyy.
Had a couple with the boys, and did my happy boxer dance, which I know all of em have grown to love, and I know they can't wait for me to do it again.
Snuggled in on the couch, and fuck, was I comfy. (:

02 / 06 / 09.
Woke up at 10ish, and got dressed, thinking Chello would be coming to stay.
Zaid dropped me home, and I was secretly patting my head in my head for not getting us lost, like the time I did with Isky and Moe, but ey, let's not get into that shit.
Was home by 11ish, and headed straight to Ma's to get my shit together.
Dy was there, so we bummed around talking, having a few ciggies while watching some stand up shit, which left me in fucking stitches.
Stole Dy's kickass kicks, so now I know that I could kick the living shit outta anybody who gets in my way. Yea, the shit's steel plated. *wiggles eyebrows.
Came home, took a shower and watched some tv.
Mother came home, and that left me in a fucking foul mood, tryna find a way to get outta the house again.
Ended up falling asleep on the couch in my undies.

The last two days have been pretty fucken good, I say.
Caprice and the boys really know how to make a chick feel good, and I'm diggin that right there.

Thanks again, hon. I'm your girl, no qualms. (;

..it's now 1am, and I know the insomnia's kickin in.

I think I've gotta pop some sleeping pills if I'm ever gonna get a goodnight's sleep anytime soon.
To top the lack of sleep off, I'm covered in cuts, bruises and scratches, most of which I don't know how I got.

Aite, first off, to set the goddamn record straight;
Chick and I are totally over, and have been for ages. I probably gave you kids the idea that we was dead serious, but naw, just messing around.
I guess I got so caught up cos it was good having someone around after such a long time.
You peoples really gotta get your facts straight, and it don't help that the chick herself was spreading shit.
I think I gotta stop getting myself mixed with all these fuckheads, they just create so much mafakkin turbulence !

Secondly, I think I'm on heat.
And the fact that Karmasutra is blaring outta my speakers ain't really helping, dig.

29 / 05 / 09.
Friday was a good way to start the holidays.
Didn't bother going to school, cos I knew for a fact that nobody was gonna be there. Decided to go after hours, to see some people for abit.
Ended up taking a cab home twenty minutes later, cos VanillaSex texted asking me to go to Pyramid with her for some last minute shopping. Huilyn came along too.
Hopped into the car with VanillaSex and Lyn, and headed off.
Walked around for a little while, helped VS pick out stuff for her partyy that night.
Spending the day with my girls was fucken awesome, as we haven't had a SexxGodd day in ages. Headed back to VS's place after devouring some good Aunty Anne's chocolate fingers.
Was supposed to go to Cempaka International, cos Khal invited me for this Save The World thingie at there, but couldn't get a cab in time, and it was well jammed up, so ended up not going.
Was totally bummed about not being able to see my bwoy, but I'm sure he did me proud anyways. (;

Got Justin and Satish to pick me up from VS's place at 10ish, and drove about for abit before heading to ChinaWhite.
Had to sit around for fucking ages, cos the boys had a meeting or some shit, and I swear, I almost offed myself.
Met Kelly and Jason, and sat around having a few drinks. I didn't know what to do with myself while waiting, so I ended up sitting around talking to Kelly. About EVERYTHING. The boy is mad chill.
The owner is some fuckhead who don't get enough at home, I feel.
The man was hitting on me, and that shit was well rank.

After about 30years, people started arriving.
I swear, I love being the only chick amongst such yummy boys.
Everytime I ran off to the dancefloor, atleast two of the boys would come guard me.
I felt so loved, I tell you.
Everytime some fuckhead tried to get fresh with me, one of my boys would step in. *bigcheesygrin.
Ended up spending most of the night bootyshaking with black chicks and dudes, which was fucking fun, though they did get outta hand a coupla times. I think I do a pretty damn good job at looking after myself, honest.
Justins friend, Kraft arrived, and I swear, he's one of the cutest kids I've seen in awhile.
I just wanted to pop him in my mouth. *wiggles eyebrows.
HAHAHAHAHA, I kid. But not really.
Left ChinaWhite at around 3ish/4, and headed over to to AC.
Was texting Reza almost the entire night, and talking to him while he gradually got a lil bit more smashed with every text, was bloody funny. I had this huge grin on my face the entire time.
Sat at AC till 6ish/7, talking and laughing. Bumped into quite a number of people there. Started feeling pretty fucking tired at 7something, and decided to go crash in Justins car.
Ended up curling up in the backseat, and sleeping till 8.30, only woke up cos I had to pee like a fucking horse, but had lost all feeling of my legs.
Kelly decided it was time to stop drinking, and hopped into the car with us.
Headed to the studio, and bummed around talking to Kelly while Justin and Satish slept on any available surface.

30 / 05 / 09.
Got Justin to send me home at 12ish. I swear, I love that kid with my fucking life, he's like one of my favourite people.
Sat around at Mama's place, before coming home.
Got a call from Khal asking me to head to Bangsar cos he was performing.
Me, being the dumbfuck I am, ended up falling asleep, and waking up an HOUR late.
Caught a cab, and met up with him, apologising profusely for my incapability to keep a promise, or tell the time. Bummed at D'Haven.
Met Iskandar, CK and William. Mad chill kids, eventhough they can't drink for nuts. (:
Walked to Nando's with them, before catching a cab home.
Hopped into the shower, and then headed to Secret Recipe with Mama as planned.
Passed up offers from Kelly to head to MCircle with them, cos I was too fucking tired.


..it's now ten minutes to 9pm, and I haven't fucking taken a shower.
And I'm hungry !

You ?
A rocker ?
Please, refrain from insulting my intelligence, dumb bitch.
You put my music to shame.

At Kai Lins' house.
Mocha and Milo are so fucking cute.

Pyramid.
Unfortunately, no Aiman in the pictures.

Babelia.
Fav shot of her, EVER.

Vic and Chello.

Chello and Aiman.

Aiman, with his big cheesy grin.

Sharon and Chello.

Ageold loves; Michael and Naveen, with a few other people we bumped into.

Naveen and Chello.

Vic, Sharon and Chello.

Chello.
I love this chick.

I'm so exhausted, I could hibernate. but since I am amazingly awesome beyond comprehension, I won't cos I've got a shitload to update on, and knowing me, if I don't do it now, my procrastinator tendencies will get the better of me.

22 / 05 / 09.
Dragged myself to school, only to have a surprise visit from Chello, asking me to head over to Inked with her. Totally blanked that I had planned on going, and quickly made plans with her. Got Dy to pick me up at 10ish, cos I couldn't be arsed to stay in school.
Aiman and Chello picked me up at 2ish, and then headed over to Kai Lin's house. Played with her ahdorable doggies while waiting for Chello to get ready. Headed over to the studio, and was so excited about seeing Babelia, I was practically pissing myself. Met Sharon and Benny, and had our shots taken.
Picked KaiLin up after we were done, and headed over to Pyramid to grab a bite at the Pancake House. I swear, the Caesar Salad there is divine. KaiLin wanted to get her belly pierced, and watching it was so goddamn disgusting. Ughhh.
Decided to head back to the studio to bum with Babelia. Hilarious conversation on the way over.
Aiman. Me. KaiLin.
"Omg, I have to sit like a pregnant woman."
"Wait, I sit like you !"
"Eh, for wha-"
"AIMAN ! Step on it, the babies are coming !"
"Who the baby daddy ?"

After hysterical giggling the whole ride over, we finally got to the mamak next to the studio. Sharon invited us to head to MOS with them that night, and the idea of it was much more appealing than going home, so I called Dy.
Daddy. Me.
"Dy, I'm gonna be staying at Michelle's tonight, and I'm not going to school tomorrow, okay ?"
"Um okay. Don't do anything that I wouldn't."
Dy, that leaves me a fucking heeuge scope, y'dig ?"
"Idiot. Love you and stay safe."

Headed back to KaiLins house to get dressed. After the heat, the shower was bloody orgasmic. Borrowed KaiLins pink top, and waited for Aiman. I felt bloody uncomfy wearing pink, cos it's not even considered a colour to me. Reached the studio at 10ish, played a lil pool before walking to MOS. On the way over, these two old guys in a Merc slowed down and screamed out the window.
Old chinese guy. Old indian guy.
"Hello beautiful ladies. Need a ride ?"
"You girls are HAWT !" (Yes, pronounced like that.)

Babelia was not amused. She's such a sweetheart, I tell you.
Headed into MOS, and straight for the smoking area. Bumped into Nazreen and Bubu almost immediately, hand't seen them both since Sunburst, so it was good bumping into them. Bumped into Nigel no more than 5minutes later, and talked for a little while. One of the highlights of my night, was bumping into Michael and Naveen. Michael swept me into this huuuuge bearhug, and Naveen joined in. Hadn't seen them in forfuckingever, so catching up put a biiiig smile on my face.
After having a few ciggies and drinks, we decided it was time to go bootyshake. After a coupla hours, Babelia wanted to grab a bite so we headed over to the nearby mamak, had a few ciggies and just talked. I think it's been well over a year since we've actually talked, so a long bitching session was well overdue. Ended up having to pay for everything in coins, cos we were both hella broke. Headed back to MOS with Max.
Me. Max.
"Shit la. I have to pee like a fucking horse."
"*dies laughing*"

Had to walk off the dancefloor at one point, cos this foul smelling dumbfuck thought it's be attractive to grope me as a pickup line. Turned around, made sure he was strerile, and said, "I'm not sure which country you're from, but that's not how we say hi here."
Bummed outside until MOS closed, and then headed to the steps and talked. Chello and Aiman were heading back to KaiLins place, so I jumped into the car with Benny, Sharon, Babelia and Raymond. Sent Babelia and Raymond home, then headed back to Benny&Sharons place in Mont Kiara.
Only managed to get to sleep at 7ish.

23 / 05 / 09.
Was awoken by the sweet smell of ciggies wafting through the door, and stumbled out in a haze. Grabbed a ciggie, and watched a movie with Max. Took a shower, and headed over to the studio.
They were hungry, so we grabbed a bite. Chello and Aiman dropped off my stuff, and then they headed home. Bumped into Shivani's momma at the studio, which was great cos she's so cute. Did some catching up till Sharon's sister sent me home at 3ish.
Got a call from Khal asking if he could come over. Bummed with the gorgeous boy till almost midnight. Ah, the boy's a sweetheart.
Got home after a worried call from Mama, and practically died on my bed.

24 / 05 / 09.
Woke up at 11.45 to the TV blasting. Rolled about in bed, hoping to fall back asleep. Gave up when Adam called, asking if we were still on for lunch.
Got showered, and caught a cab to Bangsar. Bitchy called, so I talked to her the whole ride over. Walked in after my ciggie to find Adam standiing there, turns out he'd been waiting for over an hour.
Headed to Chili's for lunch, and spent two hours just talking. Finally caught a cab back to his place. I love Adam's house, I swear. Chilled out till about 6ish, before catching a cab home.
Fucking cabbie tried to rip me off, and asked for 60bucks.
Told him to go fuck himself, and threw 2o at him.
Aunty Karina and Aidan came over for a swim and a movie.
Headed to MidValley, and watched Night At The Museum 2, which was pretty cute.
Headed home, and crashed.

25 / 05 / 09.
Woke up at the buttcrack of dawn for Confirmation Class, and got showered. Still felt like a fucking zombie, and looked like a fucking trainwreck. The only thing that kept me going was the thought of my Sunday morning ritual.
I honestly can't remember what I did on Sunday, so fuckit.

26 / 05 / 09.
It's all Natt, I swear.
She's such an idiot.
I love you, wifeeehhh.

Dragged myself out of bed, yet again, and got dressed for school. I still felt like hell, and my eyes were bloodshot, so on top of feeling like shit, I looked like a hardcore junkie.
Slept through the first 5periods, and then found out how badly I bombed in my papers.
Fran and Khal came over for a swim. I've been spending so much time with Fran that I feel like we're joined at the hip, I tell you.
Sat around and smoked ourselves silly. (When I say we, I mean Fran, cos Khal won't let me smoke around him.)
We got tortured by Craig, the demon child, yet again.
This time, instead of threatening to send me to hell, he tried to kill me with his slingshot.
Sat around the pool till about 10ish, just talking and laughing like baby hyena's on weed.
Made friends with these Iranian people in the pool, who kept calling Khal "Badman."
The idiot PICKED me up, and carried me around like a fucking blowup doll.
Decided to hop outta the pool, and headed to the men's bathroom.
Which was bloody hilarious, I swear. We ended up staying in there longer than we were supposed to.
Both of them left at around 10.30ish, while I came home, and took a niiiice hot shower, before collapsing on my heavenly bed.

27 / 05 / 09.
School has been so uneventful, it's not even funny. Been tryna up my attendance, as my constant abscenties have earned me yet another warning letter.
Came home, and called Za.
He picked me up and we headed to Rasta.
I haven't seen the boy in well over 5months, so it was really good catching up.
After we got sick of Rasta, we headed over to MidValley to play some pool. He whooped my bum real good, I tell you. Even the guys 4 tables away couldn't help but snigger at my pathetic attempts at beating home.
Got home at 7ish, and the thought of going to sleep was so bloody tempting.
Came online, talked to Reza and decided to accompany him on his walk.
The boy is freakishly awesome, I tell you. I'm almost always in stitches when I'm around him. And he supplies me with my constant nicotine craving, which is always a plus in my book. *bigcheesygrin*


..it's now 11.49pm, and I'm absolutely knackered.
Fran and Khal are coming over tomorrow for yet another fun time in the boys bathroom, and maybe a lil swimming after. Heeheee.
I actually contemplated borrowing a tent from Za, just so we could camp out by the pool, but my better judgment got the better of me, unfortunately.

Now I can't decide if I should go for Aoki or Freedom.
Dy's going for Freedom, and it'd be a tad awkward if I bumped into him there.
Maybe I'll just go party hardy this weekend with some girlfriends, or summat.

Oh, by the way, I LOVE YOU, MON !

I decided to come home early from school.
Why ?
Cos ain't nothing going down, and staying until the last bell seemed like a hard thing to do.

Heading out with Chelle and Aiman afterwards, hopefully to get inked.
Teeheee.

I love Google, and Wikipedia. Eat this, bitches;

Even if homosexuality was considered a sin, there are a lot of other things in the Bible that are considered to be sins as well. The reason people proclaim to be a Christian is because they acknowledge they've sinned and they need help in order to be a better person. Thus, all Christians are unrighteous people, because all Christians commit sins even if they don't commit homosexuality. So according to 1 Corinthians 6:8-10 the unrighteous can't enter heaven. We have a problem if indeed Christians are all unrighteous people and unrighteous people can't enter into heaven. That's where God's grace comes in. Ephesians 2:8-9 says ⁸For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith-and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God - ⁹not by works, so that no one can boast. No Christian could ever be perfect or sinless, so God's grace makes up for what we lack.

Jesus was quoted as saying "Let he with no sin cast the first stone." Christians are sinners and because of this should never judge anybody based upon the lifestyle they lead, even if it the lifestyle is questionable. Who is to say one lifestyle is better than another one? Jesus hung out with the prostitutes, thieves, and other various outcasts because He loved them unconditionally even though He didn't agree with the lifestyles they may have chosen. He never told any of them that they were going to hell because of the sins they did. So why should we judge if someone is going to hell? The simple answer is that we shouldn't. Just as the thief on the cross next to Jesus didn't go to hell, neither will a homosexual go to hell.

Sick and tired of being sick and tired.
Time to get away, I've been stuck in the same place for so long, and I think it's high time that I got over this shit, and stop letting myself get hurt.
Honestly, what's the point of letting down the wall you've taken forever to build, only to have the reason you built it up in the first place, chucked in your face, over and over again ?
So, once again, like last year, I've decided to announce my Manorexic-ism (when I say Man, I don't just mean the ones with dicks, I mean chicks too.)

I think it's time to run.