mm, hey.

I'm still happy. And I pierced my ears again, in two places. I now have 7 piercings, on my ears.
Okay, random.
I've had quite a good day, eventhough I'm now broke. Again.
I need to stop spending so much money on stuff that I prolly won't use. Ever.

But I think I will use the stuff that I bought today, majority of which will not cause lung cancer. Well, hopefully anyway.
I now have my 'Little Miss' shirt.
It says ; Little Miss Bad.
Which is beyond true. Had a choice between the 'Little Miss Scatterbrain' and 'Little Miss Bad,' but chose the 'Little Miss Bad' as the other was an ugly colour. I now have an actual pink shirt.
Ugh. Shuttap Ash, shuttap times ten.

I'm in the mood to eat pineapples, but Momma won't let me steal hers. But then again, I don't blame the woman for holding a grudge after Chinia, Sam and I slit her papaya. Emo papaya we dubbed it. *giggles.

Think Nana has been feeling a tad sentimental lately, based on pictures on her FB. I guess things have changed, and alot too. It's kay NanerBananer, we shall have another one of those days. Till then, I shall try and come everyday to Play & Learn to check up on you. (: Cos I'm awesome like that, dig ?

;; Remember the day when we started this,
And she made the shape of my heart with her hands,
We try to make some sense of it.

A beautiful girl can make you dizzy,
Like you been drinking Jack & Coke all morning,
She can make you feel high,
Full of the single greatest commodity known to man ; Promise,
Promise of a better day,
Promise of a greater hope,
Promise of a new tomorrow,
This particular aura can be found at the gait of a beautiful girl,
In her smile, In her soul,
And the way she makes every little rotten thing about life seem like its gonna be okay.

Taking Back Sunday makes me happy. (:

Howdy. (:

I am a happy, round child.
So shut yer faces. :D

I've been out everyday, running all around KL , hence the lack of updates. The only place we haven't gone is OU, surprisingly enough.
Been eating like a starved piggolette. Which is alot.

Went to KLCC today, and met up with Uncle Urs for tea. Yummy yummy, Chinoz.
I am in desperate need of new books. And we all know I'm about as broke as a homeless junkie, so that was a no go. Or so I thought. Then Uncle Urs gave me a hundred bucks :D.
Yay yay ! Got 'Twisted.' It's pretty good so far, eventhough I'm only at the beginning. Heh.
I'm absolutely dying for Chuck Palahniuks' 'Invisible Monsters.'

Okay, okay. I shuttap.

We were all talking about our younger days, when we were (surprisingly less retarded) a tad more civilized.

Sa : I was 7lbs 4oz, right ?
Momma : 7lbs 2oz.
Me : Me ? Me ?
Momma : 8lbs 4oz.
Chinia : 8 KILO's ? OMG !
Sa : 8 Kilo's you think can come outta your Momma's punani ah ?
Momma : What's punani ?
Me : VAJAYJAY !
Momma : Whadt ?

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHA.

Mm, I had a pretty good day.

Woke up at like 9 in the morning to head to school, as I am in debt to one of the teachers, and I have yet to pick out my future class. Absolute bollocks, really. I'm planning on heading into Arts, as I know I would nothing but overwhelmed in Science, regardless of the fact that I do love the subject. Mm, such is life.

Got home, and bummed around for abit before heading off to Pavilion. I really really do not like that place, I swear to god, but whatevs. No trolleys today, promise. Got pretty bored of Pavilion after like an hour, and I was honestly not in the mood for shopping, or walking for the fact.
Bundled into the car and headed to Times Square.
Felt like a total bitch, cos Saravanan was already on the way to OU to meet up with me, as the initial plan. Jumping around Times Square squealing apologies, not my best look, trust me.
And if you are reading this, I'm sorry yet again love, I thumgwigglepromise to make it up to you.
Decided to go crazy at the theme park, as we were craving a lil speed and physical imbalance.
Oh, bumped into Shah, who I have not seen in what feels like years, but in truth only a few months, heh. Headed home after a long day, with a damn headache from being upside down too long.
Have been a bum since. I'm too lazy to even move, I swear, not even for food. The only thing I'm willing to take in right now, is nicotine. And that too, I'm making Chinia pass to me.
Laziness strikes, and everyone else abides. *bigcheesygrin.

You, are really beginning to get on my nerves.
You, need to get into your spaceship.
You, I miss. (:

SURVEY !
Been forever since I done one of these.

Ripped this off AshOompaLoompa's blog. Yes, I'm bored.

1] are you single, taken, crushin?
Pfft, hello. Sam ronson Sam ronson Sam ronson Sam ronson Sam ronson Sam ronson Sam ronson Sam ronsonSam ronsonSam ronson ! *licks teeth.

[2] are you happy with where you are?
Pretty much, yea.

[3] when you meet the right person, do you fall fast?
Abit too fast.

[4] have you ever had your heart broken?
Oh, too many times, too many times.

[5] would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you?
I did. I don't regret it. Those 5 months were pure bliss.

[6] have you ever talked about marriage with another person?
Only playfully. I can never really see myself doing the whole white wedding thing. I just wanna have a kid. I really like kids.

[7] do you want kids?
Aforementioned. Gosh.

[8] how many?
Eleventy seven. Okay I lied. I actually want three. Like Momma :D

[9] would you consider adoption?
Only if I couldn't have my own. I would honestly rather have my own kid. Like apart of me running around with lil pitterpatter of baby feet. Even thinking about it makes me swoon !

[10] if somebody liked you right now, what do you think is a cool way to say?
Hello, have my kids. BAHAHAHAHAHAHA. I'm pretty straightforward, so regardless of how selfish it is, I expect the people around me to be as straightforward.

[11] do you enjoy playing hard to get?
I'm a tease. Deal.

[12] do you want someone you can’t have?
Gimme gimme Sam Monroe.

[13] do you believe love at first sight exists?
Lust at first sight, most definitely. Love ? Not so.

[14] do you believe in celebrating anniversary?
Yes, of course. I like celebrations. Especially if it ends with some lovin. (;

[15] do you believe that you can change someone?
I actually did do that. Not too long ago. But now, maybe. I try, y'know ?

[16] do you have feelings for someone right now?
Wouldn't you like to know ? (:

[17] Do you still have feelings for an Ex?
I never really get over someone, in the sense that I'll always have that pull, but I wouldn't consider those feelings. Its indescribeable, really.

[18] have you ever cheated on someone?
Nah. Never have, possibly never will. It shows you lack commitment, so what's the point of being in a relationship is you don't plan on sticking to it.

[19] would you ever consider getting married in high school?
Fat chance la, bugger.

[20] would you marry any of your ex`s if they ask?
Haha, who knows kan ? A few years down the line, I'll get back to you.

;;I'll be there for you,

till my heart is black and blue.

Mm, it's 2 in the morning, and I've been tossing and turning for the last hour, if not more.
I feel like my skin is burning, and my legs are exhausted from all the moving I've done in the last hour.
I'm tired, but I can't bring myself to close my eyes. Usually, the last few minutes before I set off into dreamland, is the time I actually think. Tonight, however, I think I've worked my mind a tad too much. Everytime I think I've settled a thought, it only arouses another. I'm tired, I am, but my anxiety just won't let everything go.
All my thoughts meshed together, forming a total whirlpool in my head. I keep getting sucked back into all these unnecessary situations, when what I really should be doing is dreaming about all the irrelevant shit that does not occur in daily life.
I've quite literally exhausted myself to the core. I could use a sleeping pill, and I say this out of pure desperation.
These past few nights have been sheer hell for me. I keep waking up in the middle of the night, as if I'm being violently shaken. It's not pretty, and I really do not enjoy this. To top it all off, my throat is as dry as cotton, and I'm doing nothing to even prevent the obvious signs of the flu.
Maybe all this venting is caused by a mild case of the flu. Or so I'd like to believe. I'd normally swear by chicken soup, but right now, I don't believe anything could solve whatever that's going through this twisted little thing I formerly referred to as a brain.
I feel like I could just lay down somewhere. I just need to get rid of all this shit that's been running back and forth through my mind. I don't want to move ever again, just close my eyes and not wake up for the next few days. Though I think I've already mentioned that, no harm in mentioning it again.
I honestly don't know what brought this on, but lying in bed gets me thinking, somehow. Used to be that little safe place I had, but obviously, not anymore.
I think I've become a tad paranoid. I keep looking out my windows, as if to check if someone is watching me. Not a first.
Had quite a surprising encounter with Daddy today, but I've somewhat recovered.
Been texting AmyBabaBlackSheep the whole night, as he's having girlfriend problems. Poor child. He said something that kinda struck a chord;
"I've got a lot of scandals. But I see all my friends with people to love them, like really adore their every ounce of being, and I feel lonely. I just want someone to love me, you know ? Or am I just being naive ?"
Was slightly taken aback at this, but I realised the best way to get over it, was to face it. So I pretty much poured my whole heart and soul out to him about what my take was, and I'm feeling a lil lighter. My heart goes out to you, boy, but I think we're stuck on the same sinking ship, believe it or not.
I've somehow given up on believing that everything's gonna be okay. It washed over me today that I just gave up on that aspect. It's too hard to keep hoping that something good is gonna happen after everything that's been going on lately.
God, I feel like I'm nothing but a neverevending pit of self pity. How pathetic.
Okay, screw this. Stuff a ciggie in there, and suck like your life depended on it.
It's about time I crawled under the covers and let the silence take over.

;; have you ever been alone,
in a crowded room ?

I am starving.
Morning, loves. (:

I have just woken up, and it's 12.18pm. I wish I could go back to sleep, and hibernate for the next few days, few weeks maybe.
I think I died inside from lack of food, but I think music is enough to feed me for the time being.
Mm, cartel and the maine.
Everyone's finally off school, so we have nothing but bumming planned for the rest of the year. Maybe a few more trips to KL. (;

I would really appreciate a holiday right now, foreal. Got my sights set on Kuantan, but that dream has yet to come true. I dreamt that I was back at Kuantan last year with Franky Panky, and all the shit we got up to. From jumping on the bus at midnight to sleeping on the beach to walking around the whole of Kuantan barefoot to falling asleep at McDonalds.
Okay, the last part was just Franky Panky.

Mm, slap on some sugar, and I'm good to go.
Okay, I think I need to shower before I actually kill a couple of squirrels with my stink. (:

"Man, I gotta lay off the nuts."

;; Hello, Heartbreak Hotel.

I am officially a KL bum, bitches.
Hahaha.

Just got home about half an hour ago, we went driving around KL for abit, cos we all felt like we needed a break from the real world ; home.
And also cos we felt like looking at prostitutes.

Me : This is like the red light district of KL man.
Jamtart : I'll show you the real red light district !
Sasa : Jeremy, thats a damn temple.

Chinia : Lets go see some whores !
Sasa : Look in the mirror.


Fucking hilarious.

Kim, you are not as such the only one suffering from love and manja withdrawal. Nobody wants to bloody love me either, I swear. Kimmeh, come loveth meee ? (:
So hard to find people to spoil us kan kan ? Hesh.

Made an extremely funny home video yesterday, because well, we have nothing better to do with ourselves. Doesn't beat bumming, but it was freakin hilarious. Will post it up as soon as I get it from Chinia's phone.
It's 11.20 in the morning, and I'm still sleepy. I wish I could back back to bed, but that hardly ever works for me. So I shall keep on puffing till the cows come home.
Okay, question.
Why do people say, "Till the cows come home ?"
Where the hell did the cows go ? Like, seriously.
I have this dire urge to jump headfirst, fullyclothed into the pool. But I won't. Why ? Because I'm too lazy to unlock the door, let alone move. So shall I remain with my tooshie plonked on my stool, doing nothing but, err, nothing.
Chinia, is still asleep, leaving me with no one to talk to, except Snuggles, but I think he's got enough on his mind already.
Momma has gone back to work, Sa has gone back to school, Jamtart is at his brother's place, Father is godaloneknowswhere, Mama is asleeeep & Sam, is watching Totally Spies.
So the chomeyl la the small one. (:

Been feeling slightly restless these past few days, and I think there's something wrong with me. My whole body is aching, and I've got the damn sniffles. ):
Maybe I'm coming down with the flu. Shitzen, that can't be good. No fever, please ? Thank you.
Tonsils swelled up like a mutha last night, could barely breathe or swallow, I swear.
Omygosh, I am hunggers. Like crazy. I just realised that I survived on nothing but sotong goreng yesterday. Made myself a tuna sandwich, but that barely helped.
I want foooooood.

Okay, that's it. I'm going scouting for someone to spoil me, love me, feed me, kiss me, cuddle me, make me giggle, and let me colour on them. Cos it's hella funnn. (:

Candidates ?

The first thing we did ;
Paint her toenails different colours.

Then, Chinia wrote that on her left leg.

I conquered the back. Well, part of it anyway.
See the 'Ash Hole' on the side ? Chinia's work. The child, is a genius.

Result, full body permanentmarker tattooing.

I actually got a decent picture of my SnugglesHater.
And my pig hasn't had a bath for 9years. And counting.

Chinia's work, yet again. Anyone who knows her would know that she is absotivelypositutely obsessed with Twilight and Edward Cullen.
The marker is only in the picture before I was about to colour in her belly button.

There's one bite mark. The other is on her back.

Ran out of ideas midway, when there was still alot more space on Ash's body. Hence, the retarded sentence.

Boog, bitches. Don't mess. (;

The top half says ; Dinosaurs are not extinct. They are just hiding.
The bottom half says ; I like Paris Hilton.
Eiyer, Ash is a dirty girl.

Refer to older posts about the prostitute thing. (:

The cherries on top of the cake, we drew and wrote on the soles of her feet.
Right foot is my territory.
Left foot, none other than Chinia.

Forgot her knees, so we decided to fill her up.
Chinia wrote 'Grandma Flora' because she's always complaining about her knee aches.

I wrote ; I am an oompa loompa.
Why ?
Well because when we were at the mamak, we were talking about piercings, and Ash told us the story of her lip piercing. Hand motions, sound effects, everything.

So, as you might have been able to tell from the pictures, we had a damn good day.
Minus the fact that we had to wake up at like 7 in the morning for church, and then had to cancel my breakfast plans with my favourite whiteboard. *giggles*
Had actually planned on meeting Ash for breakfast after mass cos she had to go see Daddy after. But no, as per usual, Momma made other plans for us. Was pretty ticked, and a tad grumpy from not getting much sleep the night before, but put up with it, being All Souls, and whatnot.
Got home and bummed like the two mafakkas me and Chinia are, and ended up going to Phase 2 simply cos we needed to stock up on cancer sticks. When we were about to leave, I get a text from Sniffles asking if she could come then. Didn't bother leaving, so just plonked our tooshes and waited for her. Meanwhile, the whole DangdutMaid drama was unravelling right before my ears. I found it all quite funny, besides the fact that I would most probably be the one to blame for Chinia's puffing habit. Got over it soon after, as it sorta blew over. I tell you, we chiqs love our Momma's a whole load, and I am not kidding.
Sniffles finally arrived, after what felt like 10years, and the three of us talked and giggled like a buncha lunatics on weed. Amy bought us drinks, so we needn't worry about washing dishes in the kitchen. Headed to the playground back home as we were getting pretty restless. Played on the swings and got up to our usual nonsense. Ash does hallucinate quite abit, I hear it comes with age. But the comment shall be kept private. I tell you, tiny people have way too many hormones. (;
Headed home, and jumped into the shower, as I swear I was about to melt into a big blob on the floor. Came in (fully clothed, might I add !) only to find Ash asleep on my bed, yet again. Kept trying to wake her up, hitting her and almost picking her up did not work, so I tried what I knew would not fail me, I bit her. *big cheesy grin*
And that, definitely woke her.
She told us we could paint her toenails if we let her sleep, so we decided on Orange, Blue and Red. Painted each toenail different colours, and let it dry. Got bored of that really quickly, so I decided to draw on her. With permanent marker. (: I coloured in her belly button !
Funny as hell, and I found her tickle spots.
Chinia got hungry, as usual. So I helped to warm up some leftover nasi lemak for her and Ash. Spoilt the two of them for a lil while, and felt pretty damn proud of myself for not breaking anything. Watched tv for abit, as we were all too lazy to even move. Except Ash, of course, who kept abandoning me to talk to all her girlfriends.
Ash left at around 5, leaving me and Chinia to wallow in boredom and self pity. The one day that we actually wanted to go swimming, was the day Jesus decided to make it pour. Life is quite a bitch, really. Ended up bumming in my room and talking, practically buttnaked.
Got a text from Ash, which made me and Chinia laugh like crazy.
It said;
It took me ages to shower ! All the soap suds were red !

Mm, havent had such a good day in awhile.
That's it, Ash. You're mine every Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday & Saturday. (:

;; and I wont love you,
as Ive got only one heart to lose.

Howdy.

Mmkay, I've got a shitload of pictures to upload from the day with Ash.
These consists of scribbles, slight obscenities, and a whole lot of giggles. (:

The pictures will be included in my next update, as of all God forsaken nights, my internet has decided to be a bitch.
Be patient.
Oh, and I finally got Ash to be nice to Snuggles.
Snuggleshater, apparently. Pfft.