Hello world.
Magic8Ball lied to me. :D

Oh and btw, I think you are beyond repulsive. (:

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Hello. Again.
They've left us home alone again.
They seem to be doing this every night.

Besides the whole abandoning front, Daddy has been a real dickhead over the last few days. It's beginning to get to me, in a big big way.
He didn't get us anything for Christmas, and then today when Sa asked him, his response was,
"You have to earn it."
Honestly, only a sick bastard says that to his kid.
I told him not to bother getting me anything, cos I don't want it anymore.
I am so sick of him taking his shit. Go away. (:

Spent the day with Chelle, Vincent and a few of his friends at Mid, the only place I ever go.
Walked around, and then had a few drinks at Italiannies.
Gotta love the managers there, they treat us like royalty, and they are hella funny.
My kind of people, ya dig ?

Came home, and have been entertaining myself with Araff eversince.
But he has begun to ignore me, so I might have to throw something at him one of these days. (:

Okay honestly, i'd like to do alot of things with myself, I just don't know what, or where to begin. Everyone thinks I'm this complete slob, just because I spend alot of time being a couch potato.
Let me attempt to clarify something;
I am not at all like this when it isn't the holidays.
I'm currently taking it easy, cos I need some time to take care of myself, after everything, that's the least I deserve.
Whatever, call me a selfish whore, blablabla, but honestly ?
I dont care anymore.
I realised just how much time I've been wasting trying to fix this mess up.
Go ahead, waste your goddamn time making assumptions, it ain't no rain on my parade. (:

Anywhoo, I'm going to go find someone else to entertain me.
I miss Za like fucking crazy.

I have just watched Angus, Thongs and Perfect Snogging.
Nothing at all like the book, and I am tempted to smack Jas over the head.
I am sad though, cos everything worked out for her, regardless of her hideous teeth.
Ugh, life is rather horrible.

Finally saw Ash after a bazillion years.
I've missed that muppet.
(:
Walked in the rain for that fatty.
While we were sitting down having a smoke, Suzie pops outta nowhere, baked outta her fucking skull, and starts talking absolute bollocks.
Quite the funny la.

I'm almost broke, it's not funny.
Got over 200 bucks over Christmas, but have used most of it on my phonebill.
I should probably stop using it so much lah.
Hee.

I am in love with the Stiff Dylans. They are fanbloodytastic, honestly.
I should probably go now, heading off to Uncle Johnny's place.
Yay, boyfriend is going to be there.
<3

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Playing with the kids in the roooom.
I swear, these are some sexual kids lah.
They kept pulling off their pants, and touching me suggestively.
Something has to be done, kids grow up way too fast !

And this, is John Colin.
Isn't he just so goddamn adorable ?
He's absolutely gorgeous, and totalleh amusing.
I love his cheeks and his thighs, and he totally makes me want him to be my boyfriend too.
But Timothy won't hear of it.
So I have no choice, but to have a notsosecret affair with John.
Beautiful, inne ?
Just makes you wanna have a baybee !

I have just gotten back from Uncle Johnny's place.
Surprisingly enough, it was pretty damn fun.
Sat around and talked.
I realised how I do enjoy spending time with the family, just for not long periods at a time.
It does get pretty exhausting.

So, Uncle Johnny's new place, is puhreety damn sweet. Its, apparently, a tad smaller than our place, but it sure as hell doesn't look that way. Its spacious, and alot cleaner compared to ours. And the guy just moved in. We've been living here for almost a year now, and its pretty much in the same condition it was in when we moved in. Wowzee. I mean, minus the box of decoratios throwing up in my living room lah.
He had thingie up on his wall, where when you leave you write something on it.
Ours looked like shit on a plate, but I attempted to pretty it up, by drawing the family on it.
It looked funneh, I don't kid.

Okay, moving on.

This year, has pretty much flown by, in what felt like a blink of an eye.
In less than 4days, we'll all be referring to this year, as last year.
Makes you think dunnit ?
I've been reviewing the whole year these past few days, and I realised how I have such few regrets. If it weren't for the decisions I made, I would not be who I am right now.
I mean sure, I'm pretty fucked up. But there are things in me, that aren't in anybody else, and I can definitely deal with that.
I made a promise to myself last year, a resolution if you must, that I would be a complete different person than I was, and a different person from those that I know and am close to, and I have done just that. What has kept me stable for so long, is knowing that I will always have something that is so hard to find, regardless of the amount of times that I've butchered it, ignored it, or walked away from it, and that's love.
Cliche'd as it may sound, I'm being completely honest.
I've got so much more love to give, and I've got so many people who are more than willing to love me, and realising this, I am content.
No matter how long this feeling of pure bliss, contentment will last, has ceased to bother me.
So, one of my New Years Resolutions this year, is going to be to stop overanalyzing things, and just work day by day, with all the love I've got to give.
Sounds good, dontcha think ?

Anywhoo, Natt's coming down soon, I hear, and I've already booked her for two days.
For ol' times sake.
(: Pool, beer and smokes.
Now that, is definitely something to count down to.

;; and if these are my parting words,
grant me this, my last request,
hold me here, until I sleep,
if I burn, then I burn for you.

Drumroll, please ?
Well, there are less pictures than I remembered, so I honestly can't recall what the hype was about. Haha.
It is now 3.16 in the afternoon, and I'm going to time myself to see how long I take on this post.
*bigcheesygrin.
As promised, the pictures and the update about my Christmas. (:


24 / 12 / 2008.
Spent Christmas Eve with Momma's side, instead of the usual dinner with the Johnson's. Was actually quite nice. Momma cooked up a storm. I swear, we had enough food to feed atleast 20 people, and I am not the only one who thought so. The smell of food was wafting through the house, and you could practically hear everyones stomach rumbling.
Bummed around for abit, until Uncle Bull and Aunty Bee Yuen came.
I was actually pretty anxious about seeing them, as the last time we saw them was at Fraser's Hill 3 or 4 years ago.
Said our hello's, and I was surprised at how... close they were.
The last time I saw them, they didn't exactly seem keen on seeing us again.

Was texting Zee Man while I was getting ready, and I told him that I was actually wearing a dress. He got so excited that he called, and begged me to take photos for him, thus the trillions of photos on display. (:
Anyone who knows me, even remotely, knows that I will never be caught dead in a dress, unless I am absolute forced to.
So here, Zee Man, from me to you.

Me & Chelle, after going crazy looking for our presents under the tree.

Lynette & Nicole, I swear, they are so big now, it's not even funny.
Ohmygod, I'M OLD.

I told you that our Santa was drunk.
And he's also quite mean.
Hilarious nonetheless.
He made everyone kiss him everytime he handed out a present, he even made Jellybean sit on his lap.
That set us off into hysterics.
The things he said, could scar any child for life.
I think Lyn & Nic are better off not believing in Santa, rather than have a Santa like this.
Gotta love Uncle Bibo.

Lynette, getting a present from Demon Santa.

Christmas Tree.
Our cup runneth over.

Aunty Bee, Uncle Bull, Nicole & Me.
Yes, we were very entertained.

Enjoyed ourselves to the core.
We put an oversizded bra on Lynette, cos we felt like it.
Had abit of wine, and surprisingly enough, Chelle didn't go all cavewoman on us.
All in all, it was a pretty good night.
And my presents were puhreety awesome.
Mm, money. *grins.
Sat around and talked till about 2, and then everyone headed home.
Hopped into bed with Chelle and talked till we fell asleep.

25 / 12 / 2008.
Got back from church at around 1, packed for Genting and bummed at home till we had to leave for Aunty Karina's house.
Got dressed, and bundled into the car.
It's fun having such a huge family, cos I've got all sorts of eccentric relatives.
Dinner was pretty good, and Timothy is officially my favourite boy ever.
Sat around and talked for awhile, then Chelle & I got bored of just sitting around, so we went to play with the kiddos.
I ended up playing Scrabble with Joel.
I haven't seen that boy in yonks, so we have made a date.
Well, a date for me to kick his bum at Scrabble. (:
Got home pretty late, and konged.

26 /12 / 2008.
Was literally up at the buttcrack of dawn, 6.12 in the morning to be exact. Dragged myself into the bathroom, took a shower and jumped into the car to head over to Grandma's. By the time we got there, I could barely contain my excitement, and my pee.
We were actually supposed to leave at 7, but ended up leaving at like, 11, cos Uncle Bibo fucked up his pants.
Do not ask me how. Sometimes, old people can be so annoying.
Chelle & I jumped into Uncle Bibo's backseat, and we were off to Gentings.
Admittedly, I wasn't looking forward tor the trip as much, cos Momma's side of the family can get extremely judgmental, and I just don't dig that.
Finally got out theme park passes, and practically ran inside.
Was bloody annoyed that everyone and his uncle was there.
And to top it all off, it rained like crazy.
Didn't get to ride anything exciting, the first ride we went on, got us completely soaked.
My poor poor All Stars, I tell you.
And Chelle & I, being the dumbasses we are, didn't bring our smokes with us, so we kept running around the theme park, asking random Chinese guys for smokes. Was actually quite funny la.
Headed back to Awana after we were done, bought smokes. The idiots didn't have Winstons, so were stuck smoking Salem's. Which tastes like balls.
Decided to bunk with Uncle Bibo & Grandma, as they don't really give two flying fucks about what we do as long as we're safe.
Momma decided that we weren't satisfied with the theme park, so she got Sa to call us and tell us not to take our wristbands off.
Chelle had already ripped hers off, so it was rather comical to watch her try and stick it back together, after rummaging through the trash in search of it.
The olds went to Momma's room to see her for abit, and so we had the hotel room to ourselves.
And we, being the idiots we are, took full advantage of the situation.
Which, of course, led to the two of us, sitting in our bra's on the balcony, puffing away as if our lives depended on it.
After everything was settled, we all headed to town for dinner. I am not having chinese food for a loooong looong time.
After everyone was full and round-er, we headed off to the theme park, rubbing our tummies.
Got puhreety bored, as the outdoor theme park was already closed.
After Momma popped some vessels yelling at Chelle & Me, we followed Aunty Bee & Uncle Bull to ride some kiddie rids with the kids.
It was actually pretty fun. I really really like those two old people, they're real funny.
Decided to stalk some poor chap for some smokes after, and sat around outside, and played with vapour. It was fun. Talked to one of the cops there, and amused ourselves to the core.
We have come to the conclusion that we are sakai's. (:
Went back to the hotel, and practically died from exhaustion.

27 / 12 /2008.
Was up at 8 in the morning for breakfast.
Packed up, and smoked ourselves silly again.
Was on the way home by 11.

Now, I need to shower.
So, as you can tell, I had an.. interesting Christmas.
Ash is coming over soon, so I need to be clean, if not she'll be complaining till the cows come home.
I have also made her fall in love with Tonight by FM Static.
Give it a listen, it'll reduce you to tears.

<3

;; I recognize the way you make me feel,
it's hard to think that you might not be real,
I sense it now, the water's getting deep,
I try to wash the pain away from me,
away from me.

Boyfriend. <3

Hello my loves.
I am back home in civilization, but not for long.
Been back for awhile now, but I am still feeling as lazy as a koala bear.
Do you know how lazy those little fellas are ?
Like reaaaal lazy.

I would love to stay and post up pictures of my Christmas, and all that jazz, but I can't.
Christmas dinner was.. interesting.
It popped along from family reunions, to drunken santas, to putting oversized bras on my 6yearold cousin, to ripping open presents and feeling somewhat content.
Been dying to blog about it, but I haven't really had the time.
We're running off to Uncle Chris's house in about an hour, which by the way, is located in the middle of goddamn nowhere.
I also haven't showered, so I feel sticky, and rather disgusting.
I can actually feel the difference, from running around in short shorts in Genting, to coming here, and still feeling hot lying buttnikkid in my bed.
Depressing ? Shyea, you said it.

Had Za to keep me company the whole way through, calming me down when things got rough, and when I just plain missed him.
And now I love him more than I did two days ago, and I didn't even think that was possible.
<3

Anywhoo, I should go, before they take over the bathroom.

;; tonight I've fallen, and I cant get up,
I need your loving hands
to come and pick me up,
and everynight I miss you, I can just look up,
and know the stars are holding you,
holding you, holding you tonight.

Hello lovers.

Am heading to Aunty Karina's in about 15minutes.
Just stopped by to wish the lot of you,

MERRY CHRISTMAS.
xxxx
All my love to you today.
After everything we've been through this year, I couldn't be more in love with each and every one of you.

I'd love to sit and pour my heart out to you right here, right now, but I'm actually running short f time.
All the updates when I get back tonight.
If it isn't too late lah.
Am waking up at the butt-crack of dawn to run off to Gentings.
Miss me, you shall.

Love you Ash & Za, with every ounce of my being.
You've made everything so much better for me.
<3

;; and I'd love to take you back,

to the place that I poured my heart out,

a million ways,

for a million reasons,

a million times.

Mm, hello.
I've had a puhreety good day.

I finally got my eyebrows done after what felt like a bazillion years, so it felt good.
Funnily enough, when people get their eyebrows done, their gripping the chairs in pain, or yelping at the slightest pull. But I actually almost fell asleep, was shaken awake by the lady cos she needed me to do something.
Chelle & I were already dressed to be dropped off at MidValley.
I do not as such enjoy the aftermath of threading. I swear to god, my whole forehead was red, and slightly swollen, results of not getting my eyebrows done for such a long time.
It was still red when I came home !
Ugh.

Headed off to MidValley, and called Zee Man, excited about our date. Haha.
Bummed with Chelle till her friends got there.
Met her friends, which was actually quite awkward.
By the end of the half an hour, I could not have been happier to go and see Zee Man.

Met up with my sexyman, and headed to buy our movie tickets.
Decided on Yes Man, despite our 'desire' to watch Beverly Hills Chihuahua.
We were beside ourselves laughing.
Went to grab a bite at Cova in the Gardens, and talked and laughed for awhile before the movie.
Practically ran to the cinema, as we were running late already.
Jumped into our seats, and I made myself very very comfortable.
Practically lay in Zee Man's lap throughout the movie, and he kept me waaarm and toasty like a big blankie. (:
Had to pee several times during the movie, which got several offers from him to accompany me.
Quite the funny man, with an exceptionally sexy ass. (;
Sat at Starbucks after the movie, and had shared a chicken sandwich.
I swear, those things are orgasmic.
Called Chelle and asked her to meet us there.
I am never ever climbing stairs again. It's possibly the worse thing you could ask me to do.
So bloody tiring, I tell you.
Didn't wanna walk anymore, so told Zee Man to drive to us.
Amused ourselves while Chelle wallowed in self pity and depression.
Got home, with Zee Man asking,
"Does anyone have to pee ?"
Came home, to Momma announcing how proud she is we are home on time for once.
I absolutely adore Za, and how he constantly loves me.
Love you, sayang.

<3

I am noo watching FRIENDS.
Oh, be still my beating heart.

;; cos if one day you wake up
and find that you're missing me,
and your heart starts to wonder
where on this earth I can be,
thinking maybe you'll come back here
to the place that we'd meet,
and you'd see me waiting for you
on the corner of the street.

p/s : despite everything, I still wonder if you think about me. you have no idea how hard its been to not look for you everywhere I go.

My tummy hurts.
I'm watching 300, there are way too many naked scenes in this movie.
So much boobies.
Heh.

I think my tummy hurts because there have been too many radioactive waves running through there. Or it's either because I haven't been eating much over the course of the past few days.
Why ? Because I keep forgetting, believe it or not.
Ugh.

Oh oh oh, I have my date with Zee Man.
No, I am not abandoning Chello. She is going to see her smelly friendies.

I am freakishly bored.
Thought I'd entertain you with the boring bollocks of my everyday life.
Aren't you amused ?

Oh oh oh, a rabbit tried to kill me.
It literally slit my wrist.
Then I don't know what happened, but I think I may have fractured my forefinger on my left hand.
I've got bruises all over my body, I swear to god.

I think I'm schizophrenic, cos I'm exhausted when I wake up, and I keep waking up with bruises and cuts.
Hmm, something to get checked out.

;; your lips,
your eyelashes,
your skin,
these are the parts of your body,
that cause my comatose to begin.

Been feeling insanely bummed today.
Been going through some old stuff on my comp, and I felt this wave of nostalgia wash over me.
After sitting around for awhile pondering, I realised that, no, it isn't me.
I've tried as hard as I can, and yet nobody makes the effort.
So maybe it's time to start considering every little thing.
I'm keeping the loves of my life close enough already, and that's all i I need, and I know this.

Your letter is still, and always will be my everyday read. Every night before I fall asleep, your words are what comfort me. But then again, thinking back, we made so many mistakes, as friends and as lovers. I'm so sick of the drunken hazy calls in the middle of the night, because I know I deserve a sober clarification. But apparently, you dont feel the same way. You need to understand that I will always adore you with every ounce of my being, but I just can't keep falling in and out of love with you. When you call, I feel myself falling back into that huge pit of whatif and maybe, and I'm tired of having to deal with that everytime you say goodbye.
But you need to stop constantly disappearing. I've grown exhausted of waiting.

Now, I should probably blog about my day with The CokeBottleCurves, am I right ?
Shyea, thought so.

Momma wanted to head to Bangsar, as she was meeting one of her colleagues there. So, the lot of us, being the arses we are, decided to tag along, and run amok in Bangsar. Was in Bangsar by 12. Bummed around here and there, and had lunch, which was pretty good, eventhough the manager's behaviour was beyond unacceptable, verging on repulsive. Split up, and ended up walking around Bangsar, in the blistering heat. Not a very pretty picture. Called Chloe and asked her to meet me at around 1.
Met up with her at D'haven. As per usual, had our shisha and drinks. Talked about everything, and how things are on our parts of the world. Having her back home is so good, you have no idea. I've been somehwat lost without my lover, and now that she is back, we have explosive times. Sat there for over an hour and just talked, sprawled on the chairs, regardless of the fact that she was in a skirt, and I was wearing something that Za will never let me live down, exposing our knickers to the whole widey world. But eh, who gives a fuck. We have what every woman on the planet has, so suck that. :D
She got her eyebrows done, and then called her driver to come get us.
Trooped into the back of her very very sexii Lexus RX300 (cue swooning), and sped off to her place. Jumped into the shower as I wasn't exactly at the peak of hygiene.
Bummed around her room for awhile, and she showed me all her Aussie heartthrobs, dickwads and all. Heh.
Chloe, as usual, attempted to dress me up, and smother me in makes up, but failed the first part, and only succeeded in putting some green-ish alien stuff on my eyes. Yea, quite scary. Sat on her balcony and took pictures. Was dying to stay longer, but Momma wanted me home early, as she still thinks I'm a total danger to the population, cos I'm constantly threatening to hit people in the back of the head, kick them, bite them, eat them, etc etc.
Got Zee Man to pick me up at 8, so I could squeeze in some Za lovin, cos I've been deprived of it for some time now. Chloe refused to walk me down, as she was clad in this transparent tutu and a white tank, simply cos she would never use it to go out. Left me in stitches, ten times over. Hopped into the car, and gave my superman a biiig biiig hug, whilst begging him not to abandon me, as the family had gone out to get some rubbish, didn't want to be left home alone, and begged him to spend just a lil more time with me, also warning him not to make fun of the way I was dressed. He kept insisting that he liked it, but I secretly think he was lying to me. Lo and behold, the road was jammed. I swear, sometimes I believe that God acknowledges my presence, and my need to be loved. Laughed in his face, then I bit his face. Revenge, you know ?
Got home, and waited while Za changed into his sexyman clothes cos he was meeting his lawyer friends at Bangsar.
Hot lips. BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
Ran to the toilet by the pool, cos you know me, and inability to hold my pee in for longer than 10minutes. Was extremely relieved after my orgasmicly good pee, that I walked out of the toilet singing, wait, scratch that, screaming along to She's A Lady by Forever The Sickest Kids.
Didn't realize the boys by the pool, laughing at me and cheering me on. Quite quite funny, though I have a funny feeling that one of them was Syafiq. Tsk.

Well, I should probably throw on something decent, seeing as we're about 5minutes away from leaving for MidValley.

p/s: I honestly think that you're the one who needs to get your own life and own friends. I mean, seriously, who are you kidding ?
pp/s: I'm still fucking proud of the fact that I've managed to hold back from everything this whole year. Yes, I have grown up.
ppp/s: Your lips, the way you smell, and your voice. (:

;; I'm waiting, waiting for nothing,
you're leaving, leaving me hanging,
when did your heart go missing ?
when did your heart go missing ?

So, I'm thinking I should probably give you monkeybutt's a proper update on what's been happening at home.

First off, ain't my Momma gorgy ? (:

Okay, moving on.

What I woke up to one Sunday morning.
The kiddo's playing Monopoly. Quite funny.

This was the same day that Jeremy left for Singapore, so to distract herself from missing the boy, Sa made everyone play Monopoly. And Sa, being the complete moneyface she is, obviously was very excited by her winnings, and planned to buy CharSiewPao with it. Sasa, Sasa, tsk.

Sat there for almost an hour, watching Sa giggle, snigger, snort and yelp everytime she won a dollar, or lost a dollar. Man, she is so fat & funny, you can't help but laugh at her antics. (:

Where we all got the giggles. That's Grandma Flora, asleep. After scolding everybody, telling them that she never sleeps in the afternoon. She sleeps as if dead, I kid you not. Hilarious as two hilarious things. Atleast she wasnt complaining about her knees. Heh.
Old lady, old lady.
Very punny.

Now to the dinner lastnight.
How it started out, in the toilet, at the Curve.
My camera is pretty damn shitty, as it's attached to my phone.
I should be more careful with my phones, I swear.
Drowning my N73 was the dumbest thing I've ever done, no doubt.
My pictures have never looked better than in my N73. Bloody depressing lah, ugh.

Daddyo. Actually quite a funny picture of the fella. He was being so funny all night.
Like, Chelle & I wanted to go get smokes, so we were going to 7Evelen, and we had to pass by Daddy & Uncle Bibo at the bar. Daddy called us to the bar, and asked us where we were going, so we told him we needed to go some stuff.
Daddy pulls out his Clorets and holds it out to us saying,
"Take this for your throat."
So I said, "No. That's gross and it doesn't help."
"I know, but it covers up the ciggarette smoke smell. *laughs."
"Tsk, shuttup la, Dy. You're such an idiot. *giggles."
I swear, he kept making shitty jokes all night, you couldn't help laugh at him.
He also had a huge rip in his jeans, you could see his bum !

Uncle Bibo.
No, it's not the lighting, he's really that red, I promise. He had like, one glass of beer, and he was all giggly and drunk, like a little girl. He kept laughing at everything we said, even the names of the food.

Okay, it's a shit picture, mainly cos I was laughing so hard.
But this is my Mama. She wasn't in the best of moods, but I made her laugh numerous times.
Yay me ! *bigcheesygrin.

You may recognize this lady.
Grandma Flora, from the picture above. She's awake this time, and very unsure about what to do with her face.
After I took the picture, she said I lied, cos there was no flash.
These old people, I tell you.
She's always accusing me of lying, and then coming to cekik me. Grr.

Momma. Who was having quite a laugh the whole night.
Except for when I had to pee.
Which was was practically every 10minutes.

So, lastnight, very very fun.
Beginning of the night was pretty rough, but it smoothened out towards the end.
I swear, we were the loudest people there, I kid you not. But whats new, right ? We Eurasians have this tendency to shout.
I'll explain why;
Cos, we all talk at once, so everyone ends up shouting to be heard.
Simple innit ? Hah, thought so.

Had yummy yummy food, and stole ties from waiters. Samala now has a Bart Simpson tie. They made Samala stand on the chair, and give a speech. Like what they did for me at Bubba Gump (the birthday song at Bubba Gump was way fucking catchier, thumb wiggle promise). So at the end of the night, we all left round, happy, and giggly. Well, drunk too, but that was just Uncle Bibo.
Came home. And Samala stuck her fingers into the cake.
Nobody else had any appetite to eat after dinner. The lot of us, wobbling around, I swear, we would've gotten around faster if we rolled, *bigcheesygrin.

Love you, Samala.
<3

**

Moving on. Today, we were all at MidValley.
Why ? Cos we practically fucking live there.

Yes, I have this tendency of losing my eyes.

I don't dig shopping, it's just not my thing. So while they tried on stuff, I sat on the floor, and wallowed in selfpity, only to receive an awesome cheermeup message from Helmi. Text him the whoe day through. When Sam & Chelle we finally done, we bopped along to FOS, where we amused ourselves silly, trying on the cutest tees. I actually only enjoy FOS, so shut yer faces.
The damage we did ? Oh, it's not a pretty number.
Wanted to dump our stuff in the car, as we're lazy like that, yo. Met up with Momma so I could get the keys. Thought everything was all fine and dandy, till we got lost. Well, not lost lost, but we couldn't find the car for shit. I swear, we walked around the carpark for over half an hour, and we still couldn't find it. This Indian couple were following us around, thinking we were going to leave. But in fact, we weren't, we were just lost. So he gave us pointers on how to find our car.
What a niiiiiice indian man. I would've hugged him, but I was kinda scared. Found the car, after inhaling enough carbon monoxide to kill a person.
Finally found the car, and we decided that we earned atleast one smoke, after running away from lizards, pushing a trolley around a carpark for over half an hour, running around looking for Momma, hiding from scarypotentialstalkers in the backseat, and waving off people who thought we were leaving. Atleast it wasn't the same old boring trip to MidValley.
After the whole car incident, Chelle needed to pee.
And guess who stalked me right into the bathroom ?
Ash ! And I have been introduced to the loves of her life, Misha & Jo. *bigcheesygrin.
Who's stalking who now, huh ?
Missed you, hon. It was good seeing you today.
<3

I am now broke, but happy. I have also run out of space in my cupboard, not that there was much space to begin with.
I swear, even a anorexic chick couldnt fit into my cupboard it's so small.
Which probably means I need new clothes. I practically live in my skinnies. Hah.
Oh oh oh, I finally got my hoodie. And i was so excited I put it on straight away, it's so huge I swear. It's so colourful, it makes me happy. *smiles.

Now, I am bored.
And I need a smoke.
I haven't had one since I started this damn post.

;; heartstrings, youre tugging at,
my heartstrings, my heartstrings,
helpless, I have become so helpless,
to your touch, oh, touch me somehow,
restless, you leave me restless,
breathless, wait for me.

Well, hello.

I'm currently flowing like the damn Niagara Falls.
Do you find yourself cringing, or saying, "Ewww, watafak." ?
Yea, well. You're not experiencing it right now.
Most of you can't even begin to imagine the pain I'm feeling, so shut your face.
I honestly feel like curling up in my bed, and sleeping the rest of the week away.
But I can't. There are things to be done, presents to buy, and ciggies to smoke.

Am pushing any negative thoughts to the back of my mind, as I'm tired of overanalyzing things, and hurting my head thinking up ways to avoid any sort of confrontation.
I've begun to tire of the whole falling-heels-over-head-hanging-upside-down, then crashing-and-burning-back-to-earth scenario.
Am puhreety proud of myself, cos after Araff, promised myself I'd stay single till atleast '09, and so far I've done just that, without any flings. Okay, maybe one, or two. But honestly, that's pretty good for me.
Agh, enough already, I bet I bore you lot with constant mishaps of my nonexistant lovelife.
I am a spinster.

Apologies to those who have been trying to contact me, and have been completely ignored.
I've been pretty out of touch lately. Leaving my phone in the room and shit. (:
And I just don't like somma you. Sorry. :P

There are like hundreds of people online tonight, and they all seem to want to talk to me.
I feel so loved. Anooyed at the alerts, but loved nonetheless. Heh.

Oh shit, I almost forgot why I even started this post.
It's Sams birthday.
Happy birthday, Betsy Pukelicious Fatpox.
I know I'm a total pain in the ass, but bear with me.
I know you secretly adore me :D

;; backbeat, the word is on the street
that the fire in your heart is out.

Well, hello.
I know, I know, it's weird that I haven't been bombarding you with my daily ramblings.
I've been to lazy to do much, honestly.
I've been bumming my toosh off, and smoking my lungs black.
Sounds puhreety fucking fulfilling aye ?
You have no idea. (;

I've been spending alot of time watching the news, and I swear, there is just too much violence in the world today. It's actually pretty sad. People keep dying, cos other people keep shooting them. I am actually sleepy and it's only 10.30.
Chello decided to abandon me, and run off to PD to see her smelly friendies (no offence, carol. I like you, eventhough you're constantly calling me spastic.)
I don't even know what I'm going to do with myself, I'm actually sleepy, but feel like I could do something, so I can't sleep. I got no peace of mind la.

Talked to the Second Love of my Life for almost 2hours yesterday, and I felt so bad for neglecting him all this while. I'm sorry, bluewhale. Forgiveth me ? Loves you.

Have been too lazy to layan anybody, so I've pretty much been ignoring technology. Besides my blog. Cos frankly, I'm too lazy la.

Tried calling Ash, but she's asleep, so I let her be.
A big hug for you, and for Nim yea ? (:
I hope everything's okay soon.
<3

Anyway, I'm going to go find something to do with myself.
Like die.

;; shudda known you'd
bring me heartache,
almost lovers always do.

Well, hello there.

Did I somehow forget to mention that I am under house arrest ?
Yea, well, I am.
Long story short, alcohol does no one any good.
And neither do menopausal mothers.
Heh.

Today was quite a productive day, honest.
Woke up at around 12.30, and watched FRIENDS (I am, and always will be a faithful follower, JOEY !) till about 1.30. Decided that we needed to get off our round bums, and do something with ourselves. Our solution ?
The gym, of course.
Just as we were about to leave, it starts raining like Armageddon, you have no idea.
Decided, yes, as you expected, to play in the rain, cos we're children like that, yo.
Came home to a house that looked like Christmas decorations threw up all over it, I kid you not.
Sat around before I took a shower.
After all of us were warm and comfy, we decided to name ourselves after food.
Momma : Mak Briyani.
Jeremy : Tok Haji Abdullah.
Sasa : Tok Sirap.
Me : Tok Rendang.
Chelle : Tok Jagung.
Sam : Tok Ketupat.

Yea, we like our local delicacies.
*rubs tummy&pats head.

I think I may not survive through the night, I have no smokes.
My life feels bleak and pathetic. There is no sunshine without my smokes.
Am mega depressed, verging on emotional breakdown. Anybody love me enough to drive over and pass me a box ?
No ?
Meh, thought so.
I don't like you.

According to Chelle, 'regardless' means 'poop.'
Yea, she loses her marbles everynight.
I say this as if she had any to begin with.

Random conversations;

Me : I'm grounded la.
Luqman : What time should I come over tomorrow ?
Me : You know what being grounded means right ?
Luqman : Yea, but li-
Me : *screams. EH, YOU CANNOT COME LA.

Me : *giggles.
Chelle : And then, he said.. Hey, wait a second. Pudding ?
Me : *bursts out laughing.
Chelle : Your in one of your moods again.
Me : No, it's just that pudding brings back memories.
Chelle : Okay then, chicken pie.
Me : *bursts out laughing.
Chelle : Shit man. why do I always relate people's giggle fits to pastries ?
Me : Pudding is not a pastry, you dumbass !

Yea, this is what we do in the middle of the night, drives me to the brink of madnosity.
How can you not adore these people ?