Aite, first off, to set the goddamn record straight;
Chick and I are totally over, and have been for ages. I probably gave you kids the idea that we was dead serious, but naw, just messing around.
I guess I got so caught up cos it was good having someone around after such a long time.
You peoples really gotta get your facts straight, and it don't help that the chick herself was spreading shit.
I think I gotta stop getting myself mixed with all these fuckheads, they just create so much mafakkin turbulence !

Secondly, I think I'm on heat.
And the fact that Karmasutra is blaring outta my speakers ain't really helping, dig.

29 / 05 / 09.
Friday was a good way to start the holidays.
Didn't bother going to school, cos I knew for a fact that nobody was gonna be there. Decided to go after hours, to see some people for abit.
Ended up taking a cab home twenty minutes later, cos VanillaSex texted asking me to go to Pyramid with her for some last minute shopping. Huilyn came along too.
Hopped into the car with VanillaSex and Lyn, and headed off.
Walked around for a little while, helped VS pick out stuff for her partyy that night.
Spending the day with my girls was fucken awesome, as we haven't had a SexxGodd day in ages. Headed back to VS's place after devouring some good Aunty Anne's chocolate fingers.
Was supposed to go to Cempaka International, cos Khal invited me for this Save The World thingie at there, but couldn't get a cab in time, and it was well jammed up, so ended up not going.
Was totally bummed about not being able to see my bwoy, but I'm sure he did me proud anyways. (;

Got Justin and Satish to pick me up from VS's place at 10ish, and drove about for abit before heading to ChinaWhite.
Had to sit around for fucking ages, cos the boys had a meeting or some shit, and I swear, I almost offed myself.
Met Kelly and Jason, and sat around having a few drinks. I didn't know what to do with myself while waiting, so I ended up sitting around talking to Kelly. About EVERYTHING. The boy is mad chill.
The owner is some fuckhead who don't get enough at home, I feel.
The man was hitting on me, and that shit was well rank.

After about 30years, people started arriving.
I swear, I love being the only chick amongst such yummy boys.
Everytime I ran off to the dancefloor, atleast two of the boys would come guard me.
I felt so loved, I tell you.
Everytime some fuckhead tried to get fresh with me, one of my boys would step in. *bigcheesygrin.
Ended up spending most of the night bootyshaking with black chicks and dudes, which was fucking fun, though they did get outta hand a coupla times. I think I do a pretty damn good job at looking after myself, honest.
Justins friend, Kraft arrived, and I swear, he's one of the cutest kids I've seen in awhile.
I just wanted to pop him in my mouth. *wiggles eyebrows.
HAHAHAHAHA, I kid. But not really.
Left ChinaWhite at around 3ish/4, and headed over to to AC.
Was texting Reza almost the entire night, and talking to him while he gradually got a lil bit more smashed with every text, was bloody funny. I had this huge grin on my face the entire time.
Sat at AC till 6ish/7, talking and laughing. Bumped into quite a number of people there. Started feeling pretty fucking tired at 7something, and decided to go crash in Justins car.
Ended up curling up in the backseat, and sleeping till 8.30, only woke up cos I had to pee like a fucking horse, but had lost all feeling of my legs.
Kelly decided it was time to stop drinking, and hopped into the car with us.
Headed to the studio, and bummed around talking to Kelly while Justin and Satish slept on any available surface.

30 / 05 / 09.
Got Justin to send me home at 12ish. I swear, I love that kid with my fucking life, he's like one of my favourite people.
Sat around at Mama's place, before coming home.
Got a call from Khal asking me to head to Bangsar cos he was performing.
Me, being the dumbfuck I am, ended up falling asleep, and waking up an HOUR late.
Caught a cab, and met up with him, apologising profusely for my incapability to keep a promise, or tell the time. Bummed at D'Haven.
Met Iskandar, CK and William. Mad chill kids, eventhough they can't drink for nuts. (:
Walked to Nando's with them, before catching a cab home.
Hopped into the shower, and then headed to Secret Recipe with Mama as planned.
Passed up offers from Kelly to head to MCircle with them, cos I was too fucking tired.


..it's now ten minutes to 9pm, and I haven't fucking taken a shower.
And I'm hungry !

You ?
A rocker ?
Please, refrain from insulting my intelligence, dumb bitch.
You put my music to shame.

At Kai Lins' house.
Mocha and Milo are so fucking cute.

Pyramid.
Unfortunately, no Aiman in the pictures.

Babelia.
Fav shot of her, EVER.

Vic and Chello.

Chello and Aiman.

Aiman, with his big cheesy grin.

Sharon and Chello.

Ageold loves; Michael and Naveen, with a few other people we bumped into.

Naveen and Chello.

Vic, Sharon and Chello.

Chello.
I love this chick.

I'm so exhausted, I could hibernate. but since I am amazingly awesome beyond comprehension, I won't cos I've got a shitload to update on, and knowing me, if I don't do it now, my procrastinator tendencies will get the better of me.

22 / 05 / 09.
Dragged myself to school, only to have a surprise visit from Chello, asking me to head over to Inked with her. Totally blanked that I had planned on going, and quickly made plans with her. Got Dy to pick me up at 10ish, cos I couldn't be arsed to stay in school.
Aiman and Chello picked me up at 2ish, and then headed over to Kai Lin's house. Played with her ahdorable doggies while waiting for Chello to get ready. Headed over to the studio, and was so excited about seeing Babelia, I was practically pissing myself. Met Sharon and Benny, and had our shots taken.
Picked KaiLin up after we were done, and headed over to Pyramid to grab a bite at the Pancake House. I swear, the Caesar Salad there is divine. KaiLin wanted to get her belly pierced, and watching it was so goddamn disgusting. Ughhh.
Decided to head back to the studio to bum with Babelia. Hilarious conversation on the way over.
Aiman. Me. KaiLin.
"Omg, I have to sit like a pregnant woman."
"Wait, I sit like you !"
"Eh, for wha-"
"AIMAN ! Step on it, the babies are coming !"
"Who the baby daddy ?"

After hysterical giggling the whole ride over, we finally got to the mamak next to the studio. Sharon invited us to head to MOS with them that night, and the idea of it was much more appealing than going home, so I called Dy.
Daddy. Me.
"Dy, I'm gonna be staying at Michelle's tonight, and I'm not going to school tomorrow, okay ?"
"Um okay. Don't do anything that I wouldn't."
Dy, that leaves me a fucking heeuge scope, y'dig ?"
"Idiot. Love you and stay safe."

Headed back to KaiLins house to get dressed. After the heat, the shower was bloody orgasmic. Borrowed KaiLins pink top, and waited for Aiman. I felt bloody uncomfy wearing pink, cos it's not even considered a colour to me. Reached the studio at 10ish, played a lil pool before walking to MOS. On the way over, these two old guys in a Merc slowed down and screamed out the window.
Old chinese guy. Old indian guy.
"Hello beautiful ladies. Need a ride ?"
"You girls are HAWT !" (Yes, pronounced like that.)

Babelia was not amused. She's such a sweetheart, I tell you.
Headed into MOS, and straight for the smoking area. Bumped into Nazreen and Bubu almost immediately, hand't seen them both since Sunburst, so it was good bumping into them. Bumped into Nigel no more than 5minutes later, and talked for a little while. One of the highlights of my night, was bumping into Michael and Naveen. Michael swept me into this huuuuge bearhug, and Naveen joined in. Hadn't seen them in forfuckingever, so catching up put a biiiig smile on my face.
After having a few ciggies and drinks, we decided it was time to go bootyshake. After a coupla hours, Babelia wanted to grab a bite so we headed over to the nearby mamak, had a few ciggies and just talked. I think it's been well over a year since we've actually talked, so a long bitching session was well overdue. Ended up having to pay for everything in coins, cos we were both hella broke. Headed back to MOS with Max.
Me. Max.
"Shit la. I have to pee like a fucking horse."
"*dies laughing*"

Had to walk off the dancefloor at one point, cos this foul smelling dumbfuck thought it's be attractive to grope me as a pickup line. Turned around, made sure he was strerile, and said, "I'm not sure which country you're from, but that's not how we say hi here."
Bummed outside until MOS closed, and then headed to the steps and talked. Chello and Aiman were heading back to KaiLins place, so I jumped into the car with Benny, Sharon, Babelia and Raymond. Sent Babelia and Raymond home, then headed back to Benny&Sharons place in Mont Kiara.
Only managed to get to sleep at 7ish.

23 / 05 / 09.
Was awoken by the sweet smell of ciggies wafting through the door, and stumbled out in a haze. Grabbed a ciggie, and watched a movie with Max. Took a shower, and headed over to the studio.
They were hungry, so we grabbed a bite. Chello and Aiman dropped off my stuff, and then they headed home. Bumped into Shivani's momma at the studio, which was great cos she's so cute. Did some catching up till Sharon's sister sent me home at 3ish.
Got a call from Khal asking if he could come over. Bummed with the gorgeous boy till almost midnight. Ah, the boy's a sweetheart.
Got home after a worried call from Mama, and practically died on my bed.

24 / 05 / 09.
Woke up at 11.45 to the TV blasting. Rolled about in bed, hoping to fall back asleep. Gave up when Adam called, asking if we were still on for lunch.
Got showered, and caught a cab to Bangsar. Bitchy called, so I talked to her the whole ride over. Walked in after my ciggie to find Adam standiing there, turns out he'd been waiting for over an hour.
Headed to Chili's for lunch, and spent two hours just talking. Finally caught a cab back to his place. I love Adam's house, I swear. Chilled out till about 6ish, before catching a cab home.
Fucking cabbie tried to rip me off, and asked for 60bucks.
Told him to go fuck himself, and threw 2o at him.
Aunty Karina and Aidan came over for a swim and a movie.
Headed to MidValley, and watched Night At The Museum 2, which was pretty cute.
Headed home, and crashed.

25 / 05 / 09.
Woke up at the buttcrack of dawn for Confirmation Class, and got showered. Still felt like a fucking zombie, and looked like a fucking trainwreck. The only thing that kept me going was the thought of my Sunday morning ritual.
I honestly can't remember what I did on Sunday, so fuckit.

26 / 05 / 09.
It's all Natt, I swear.
She's such an idiot.
I love you, wifeeehhh.

Dragged myself out of bed, yet again, and got dressed for school. I still felt like hell, and my eyes were bloodshot, so on top of feeling like shit, I looked like a hardcore junkie.
Slept through the first 5periods, and then found out how badly I bombed in my papers.
Fran and Khal came over for a swim. I've been spending so much time with Fran that I feel like we're joined at the hip, I tell you.
Sat around and smoked ourselves silly. (When I say we, I mean Fran, cos Khal won't let me smoke around him.)
We got tortured by Craig, the demon child, yet again.
This time, instead of threatening to send me to hell, he tried to kill me with his slingshot.
Sat around the pool till about 10ish, just talking and laughing like baby hyena's on weed.
Made friends with these Iranian people in the pool, who kept calling Khal "Badman."
The idiot PICKED me up, and carried me around like a fucking blowup doll.
Decided to hop outta the pool, and headed to the men's bathroom.
Which was bloody hilarious, I swear. We ended up staying in there longer than we were supposed to.
Both of them left at around 10.30ish, while I came home, and took a niiiice hot shower, before collapsing on my heavenly bed.

27 / 05 / 09.
School has been so uneventful, it's not even funny. Been tryna up my attendance, as my constant abscenties have earned me yet another warning letter.
Came home, and called Za.
He picked me up and we headed to Rasta.
I haven't seen the boy in well over 5months, so it was really good catching up.
After we got sick of Rasta, we headed over to MidValley to play some pool. He whooped my bum real good, I tell you. Even the guys 4 tables away couldn't help but snigger at my pathetic attempts at beating home.
Got home at 7ish, and the thought of going to sleep was so bloody tempting.
Came online, talked to Reza and decided to accompany him on his walk.
The boy is freakishly awesome, I tell you. I'm almost always in stitches when I'm around him. And he supplies me with my constant nicotine craving, which is always a plus in my book. *bigcheesygrin*


..it's now 11.49pm, and I'm absolutely knackered.
Fran and Khal are coming over tomorrow for yet another fun time in the boys bathroom, and maybe a lil swimming after. Heeheee.
I actually contemplated borrowing a tent from Za, just so we could camp out by the pool, but my better judgment got the better of me, unfortunately.

Now I can't decide if I should go for Aoki or Freedom.
Dy's going for Freedom, and it'd be a tad awkward if I bumped into him there.
Maybe I'll just go party hardy this weekend with some girlfriends, or summat.

Oh, by the way, I LOVE YOU, MON !

I decided to come home early from school.
Why ?
Cos ain't nothing going down, and staying until the last bell seemed like a hard thing to do.

Heading out with Chelle and Aiman afterwards, hopefully to get inked.
Teeheee.

I love Google, and Wikipedia. Eat this, bitches;

Even if homosexuality was considered a sin, there are a lot of other things in the Bible that are considered to be sins as well. The reason people proclaim to be a Christian is because they acknowledge they've sinned and they need help in order to be a better person. Thus, all Christians are unrighteous people, because all Christians commit sins even if they don't commit homosexuality. So according to 1 Corinthians 6:8-10 the unrighteous can't enter heaven. We have a problem if indeed Christians are all unrighteous people and unrighteous people can't enter into heaven. That's where God's grace comes in. Ephesians 2:8-9 says ⁸For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith-and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God - ⁹not by works, so that no one can boast. No Christian could ever be perfect or sinless, so God's grace makes up for what we lack.

Jesus was quoted as saying "Let he with no sin cast the first stone." Christians are sinners and because of this should never judge anybody based upon the lifestyle they lead, even if it the lifestyle is questionable. Who is to say one lifestyle is better than another one? Jesus hung out with the prostitutes, thieves, and other various outcasts because He loved them unconditionally even though He didn't agree with the lifestyles they may have chosen. He never told any of them that they were going to hell because of the sins they did. So why should we judge if someone is going to hell? The simple answer is that we shouldn't. Just as the thief on the cross next to Jesus didn't go to hell, neither will a homosexual go to hell.

Sick and tired of being sick and tired.
Time to get away, I've been stuck in the same place for so long, and I think it's high time that I got over this shit, and stop letting myself get hurt.
Honestly, what's the point of letting down the wall you've taken forever to build, only to have the reason you built it up in the first place, chucked in your face, over and over again ?
So, once again, like last year, I've decided to announce my Manorexic-ism (when I say Man, I don't just mean the ones with dicks, I mean chicks too.)

I think it's time to run.

So, I'm officially an orphan.
Momma told me she doesn't love me anymore, that she regrets having kids cos of me and that she wishes I would die.
Daddy hasn't even bothered checking in, but what's new.

Honestly, it was long coming, but it didn't even sting when she said it.
I just shrugged and walked away.
Being numb has proven to have advantages, I've honestly never been able to walk away unscathed from the hurtful things she says, but yesterday, I just walked away and we haven't acknowledged each other since.
I'm actually contemplating finding somewhere else to stay for a little while, just to give her some space, since she wants me gone so much.
The only thing that's keeping me here right now, is the fact that I'm flat broke and I've got school.

Spent the day by the pool with Fran, which was shitloads of fun.
Especially making smoke bubbles, and laughing at demon children.
Tanlines everywhere, man !
Going from practically living together two years back, and then barely speaking, and now back to this, has been amazing. (:

You know what yous should do ?

Pick up a paperback copy of Paint It Black by Janet Fitch, get a playlist consisting of whatever gets you happy and calm.
I'm in the first few hundred pages, and I've barely been able to put it down. I've only done so right now, to tell you all about it.
It's physically impossible not to love me with the way I love and share knowledge with you twits.

I ran out of school today, which was hilarious.
Couldn't be arsed to stay for the damn teachers day celebs, so I called Ma and asked her to come get me. As I walked around the corner, assuming a safe escape, a police car stopped me.
Bloody hilarious.
Daddy rolls up and goes,
"Take her only, bang. Take her. It's not like she helps around the house anyway."
I hit him with my rucky when I got into the car.

Am supposed to meet Reza later, and supposed to head to Pyramid with Fran later.
I'm such a busy woman.
Alls the better to keep my mind off things, dig ?

Been eating like a fucking ano lately. Haven't eaten anything proper in about 4days.
Nahh, ain't no crazy crash diet, it's just that I haven't got an appetite. (I know, who am I kidding with an ass like mine right ? Teehee.)

Missing you hasn't really gotten any easier, but other things to keep me occupied actually have been a great help. Reading blogs and stumbling across pictures of you, knowing that you both have history and we didn't even have enough to time make our own, still kinda stings. But hey, as long as you're happy, I'll keep this smile on my fatface.


;; so long, my luckless romance,
my back is turned on you,
shoulda known you'd bring me heartache,
almost lovers always do.

I'm back !
I know you bitches missed me. (:
Even if you didn't, just say you did because it would make me happy, like how rubbing my tummy and patting my head makes me happy. :D

You know what the best part about getting back to the civilization of my laptop is ?
My music.
I am experiencing euphoria at it's best.
I'm well drugged up on She Wants Revenge.
Fucking amazing shit, homebwoy.

Made a fucking hugeass card for Azlina today, cos I'm well off the hook and Priy made me.
Will post up pictures of the monster when I can be arsed.

First of all, I'M SORRY.

I broke my laptop wire. I know, how did I even do that ? It's a freaking wire.
As Zee Man would say,
"How in the hell did you manage to break something to UNbreakable ? Shit, now I'm scared. What if you break me ?"


So, I'm currently on Sam's shit computer, which I literally have to smash in to get the words out, which is not as such fun. Mm. I'm quite literally dying to getting back to my laptop, especially my music.
I've decided that after this, I'm going on hiatus for a little while. Honestly, blogging feels more like an obligation now, and I hate feeling obligated to do anything. I'm so tired of everything that's been going down lately, and I just really need to get away for awhile. Been spending almost everynight with Fran, which has been fucking awesome. Just driving around, and talking. It actually feels good to talk about everything, and lay my cards on the table.
These past few months, I've closed myself off so much, sometimes I find it hard to even think about it when I'm by myself. There's a fine line between falling in love and falling apart, and even through my bruised and blinded eyes, I see I've overstepped the line. Trust me to go against the very thing I've been avoiding for over a year. A year is a long time, even for me.
I know, I have this crazy tendency of over analyzing and exaggerating things, but I mean,I'm guaranteed the few days of mourning, am I not ? (:

You ♥;

It's strange how I got so used to having you around, and now having you just walk away when I want to put my arms around you. Having to turn around and walk away from even talking to you, stings like a motha.But I'm not prepared to come between you and your family, eventhough it's fucking killing me even to think about giving you up.

I miss you, and having your fingers locked in mine.

Walking around, and having people ask me what's going on, just doesn't make things any better, trust.

Whatever it is, you know what you mean to me, right ?

And I hope you know it.

Priy and Boondek, I fucking love you two with my life okay.
I don't know what I'd do without you both.
Which reminds me..

.bernadette. says:
Haha. Yeah man. I'm eyeing a pair of 4 quarter shorts in radioactive.
.mandaLOVER;; russian roulette._♥. says:
DUDE, 4QUARTERS IS FULL LENGTH,DOUCHE BAGGGG.
.mandaLOVER;; russian roulette._♥. says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHAHAHAHAHA.


So, I think I should go.
I'm already getting irritated.

I ain't no Fred Flinstone, but I can make your bedrock. (;
*wiggles eyebrows.*