I've been spending alot of time with Daddy lately, and I'm beginning to realise that he isn't as bad as he used to be.

Love you, Dy. (:

So, I'm a bigger disaster in the kitchen than I thought I was.
And that's definitely saying something.

Once Za wanted to take me on a picnic, and told me to bring food, and I was like,
"Do you have some sort of twisted deathwish ?"

Sam and I decided to bake cookies today. Suhhweet peanut butter and chocolate cookies. Big mistake, you have no idea.
We bought everything we needed; Chocolate chips, and er.. chocolate chips.

Came home, and immediately started getting to work, irritating the life out of everybody while we were at it, of course.
Laid everything out like two professionals (which we aren't, you will come to learn) and began our torture of flour, etc etc.
It was, admittedly, the first time I had ever baked in my life, and I fucking enjoyed myself, and I amused myself so much playing with the cookie dough and peanut butter.
Finally tossed them in the oven, after like, ages of going crazy and bursting into insane fits of giggles.
We got flour and dough all over the kitchen, which didn't sit with well with Mother.
Popped our cookies into the oven, and cleaned up the kitchen while waiting.
12minutes later, a burning smell is wafting throughout the house.
Turns out, our cookies are burnt.
It was, by far, one of the most depressing moments of my life.

I spent the next half hour scraping the burnt bits of the cookies off, and munching on crumbs.

I'm never baking again, it hurts my heart too much.
So next week, I'M COOKING.
(I kid. I will, no doubt, burn the whole off Pantai Hillpark down.)

This comes under one of the worst Saturday's in time.

Ya'lls know that VHS or Beta are in KL tonight, right ?
Performing at the Heineken Green Room.

Well, Daddy got invites to the thing, and right now, he's getting ready to head over there.
And then, he's spending the rest of the night with the boys from VHS or Beta, and he said I might be able to meet them.
So I lost my head, and went apeshit.
So I asked Mummy if it'd be alright if I went out with Daddy tonight for dinner with the boys.
And she loses her fucking nerve, and tells me to fuck off, and not to ask her for anything.
I asked her why she wouldn't let me go, and her excuse was that she hates my dad.
What the fuck does that have to do with me ?

If she's got issues with the man, don't fucking take it out on me.
So much for wanting to be happy, cos she knows that VHS or Beta are one of my favourite bands.

When Sa was 12, she let her have off in the middle of the fucking night to meet Blue, at fucking Zouk.
Do you see why I'm so fucking pissed now ?

Fuck this, I'm going whether she likes it or not.

Hi, Kaneyy.
I miss you, my motorcycle riding gummy bearrr.

So, I'm seriously considering getting my tonsils out cos they're seriously starting to fuck me up.
I can barely breathe cos they're pretty much sticking together. So I guess they might just suffocate me. Joy unbounded.

So, I'm definitely going to be in debt by the time I'm like 20.
I've been spending waaay too much on my phonebill (result of playing therapist with Chello. If I were her therapist, I'd have a Hummer by now. HAHA)
It's kinda funny how my relationship advice makes so much sense when someone else is doing it, and not me. So much for practicing what you preach aye.

So I got my Science paper back a few days ago, and I did pretty alright compared to the others. 'Teacher' is not as such the brightest crayon in the whole box, dig ?
Question was;
State one function of a drug used in the medical field.
My answer; As a local anesthesia.
Fool marked it incorrect !
So, the conversation went as such, quote;
"Dude, how could you mark me wrong ? My answer is way more logical and better constructed than yours."
"Atcheli, I taktau what your answers means. Pelik betol jawapan you. Apa annastacia ?"
"Well, Annatascia is my godmother's name, but ANESTHESIA is sedatives. The thing they put in you before you go into surgery ? MORPHINE."
"To tahan sakit ke ?"
"Okay, let me break it down for you. My answer is right, and I know that it is. So give me my marks, and we can stop this pathetic excuse for a science IN ENGLISH conversation."

Makes me wonder where in the hell we get our teachers from.

Moving on.
Yesterday was a good day.
Got home from school, and headed to KL with Daddy cos we had to go to the Pineapple Concerts office, to pick up the F1 tickets. Unfortunately, the tickets had run out, and Sa got some holiday instead. So much for Jamiroquai, man.
Hpefully Dy will be able to get us tickets, anyway.
Headed to Sect14 after cos he was meeting some business partners.
Sat around and had something to eat at this place called Pappa Rich.
Met Jeff, who's fucking awesome and is very into polygamy.
Very interesting to listen to the things he has to say, sexual as they are.
Amusing fucker, he is.
And he's very interested in listening to me talk.
Headed home after like 4hours, and then bummed for the rest of the day.

Decided to not go to school today, cos my tonsils are fucked, as I said.
Howell.
I just remember I need to go get some smokes.
Have a good one, mafakkas.

So, here we are, yet again.
At the starting line.
I don't think I'm playing your game another time.
I've had enough of going round and round in circles.
Sorry homebwoy, I'm actually happy.

Hi !

As I type this, Four Years Strong angsty version of Love Song is playing on repeat in my head. It is, as you say in English, bloody annoying.I'm hoping that Hawthorne Heights will take over soon, or I'll lose what's left of my marbles.

Just realised I forgetted about my date with Priyy (which ended up being this huge ass group thing) We've been putting our date off for ages now, and so we decided to us the last day of holidays to bum. Priyy snuck out of band camp. HAHAHAHA.
I had to wait for her for like an hour, before deciding to grab a bite, and I swear, I almost fell asleep waiting. The woman finally arrived, and then we walked around after having a smoke.
Bumped into Redza (whose ass was on full display for Priy & I. HAHAHA, loveyoulahh), and watched the boys play pool before opening up a table, and playing pool with Boondek.
Holy fuck, I'm so bad at that shit, but I had fun kinda but not really kicking Boons bummy.
(Kay, I lied. She kicked my ass real good, like totally buttwhipped, but I have a rep to upkeep.)
Jumped into a cab. then realising that my cabbie was well drugged up.
Was home by 4.30, and texted Casey for the rest of the day.

Okay, hi, foreal.
Going back to school today, made me feel like I hadn't been off all week. Wasn't particularly looking forward to zombie-ing around the house at 6 in the godddamn morning, but on the notsobright side, I can sleep the whole day away. And I'm hopefully seeing Casey tomorrow.

On another note, there's this chick, who is quite literally the epitome of pathetic. She went to Cambodia for a week, and came back speaking like a Texan. How in the fuck did that even happen ? Fuck, we laughed so hard. Heggyheggyhoghog. I gotta stop being such an asshole. But it was fucking CAMBODIA, not fucking Texas.

I'm tryna get Daddy to score me some F1 tickets, cos I wanna catch Jamiroquai. I've been hearing that Oasis is headed to Singapore. I know how Indonesia feels about us now. But if they do come, I'm only going to watch 'Wonderwall.' Admittedly, Cartels' rendition brings me to tears, but Oasis is all time classic.

Grabbed the first chance I got to quit the cheer squad, (which I was threatened into, ay'lls know that ain't my thing, at all. Its weird and random, almost as random as drinking tea if you;re not British. HAHA, thanks Neal).
Momma wasn't please, as Sa sustained her knee injury from being a cheerleader (willingly, what fresh hell ?). I was threatened physically and academically, Arts wise, if you catch my drift. After giving up the fight, I felt like I had sold my soul to the Devil himself.
Okay, not really. I just dig the dramatic effect.

Oh, and about everyone being mad at me ? Yea, I was right.
Okay, not everyone, but it might as well have been, cos one of the most important people were mad at me.
Sorrry Casey, sayang me ? ):
I'll make it up to you, thumb wiggle ankle shake. And you know what that means to me.
Hey, guess what ?
Echo misses you. (:

Texts;
Casey (pretending to be some stranger). Me.
"Hey Amanda. I saw you at Sunburst yesterday, and I think you are really hot. I went through alot of trouble getting your number. I would like to get to know you better."
"Hahaha.. okaaay. But who are you ?"
"My name is Buster Casey, but my friends call me Rant."
"I see. I do believe I've already got my Casey. Sorry."
"Why don't you call him then ?"
*dials Caseys' number*

Shudda seen me laugh when I read the first text, man.
I was in the middle of complaining to anyone who would listen (Reuben& Vanilla) about how I hate people, and the way the world works, and how I'm gonna be a carmalite nun.
(I'm seriously reconsidering the last one though, but to an extent.)
The life of a nun is clean and chaste, and frankly, I am none of the above. Well, maybe I'll convert and become a liberal hippie, meaning I will shave, and be bald as a baby(neck down). I'll never feel unloved ever again, because awesome tie-dye clad people will shower me with peace and love.
I think I've gotten slightly carried away.
Next thing you know, I'll be telling you that I have a friend who thinks he's part unicorn, and a dog that eats live birds.
Hang on, everything's gone slightly dejavu-ish.

I love you.
Hey Chello.
It totally sucks that you're going through shit right now, and the fact that I'm not there to kick anybody's ass is just plain shit (I know he's technically on my side of the world, but I'd like to believe that if I were to go to Sarawak, he'd be there too. Cos frankly, I wanna kick his ass, cos he's a butthole for doing what he did.) I'm sorry that all this is fucking with your head, and I'd really like to say he's a waste of your time and not good enough for you, but it's evident that he means something to you. You know I love you with every ounce of my being, simply cos you're my bestfriend, and you mean the world to me. I've got your back no matter what, promise.
Gimme a call when you feel like the sun ain't shininng no more.
Ily. <3.

So, I'm more than likely to fail every subject I'm taking. I'm pretty much buttfucked. Hard.
Momma's not gonna be happy, but I'm not all that freaked out, as it's the first exam, and I'm still getting used to all this new format shit. I know I've gotta study my fat arse off if I really wanna do what I wanna do. I was 5marks short of passing my fucking BM paper. Tskk.

I've got huge bruises all over my body and they hurt like a motha. It actually hurts laugh, cos everytime I do, I feel this searing pain ripping through me. I can barely walk, and I feel like a fucking idiot, cos I gotta keep doubling over every few steps.
Thanks, really. This is what I needed, a lil display of love.

Kay, though I'd love to stay and talk more bollocks, Im feeling the need to crack open a beer, and have a ciggie.
I've got a fucking killer headache.
Vicodin, anyone ?
*wiggles eyesbrows.*
I joke, I joke.

p/s : come to think of it, I'm aching.
You're rapidly becoming very very important to me.

Why the hell do I feel like everyone hates my guts right now ?
I keep feeling that everyone's mad at me, and my dream did not help either.

I'm all sad and shit, cos I think Casey's mad at me.
Are you ?
I kinda miss you.

I've made my decision.
I'm going to be a Carmalite nun.
No one can hurt me then, cos I won't be able to talk, and I can't communicate with the outside world. AND I'M NOT ALLOWED TO BE WITH A MAN.
I wonder if I can have a kid though.. I hear it's not encouraged.
This is fucken trippy man. I cant deal.

Don't ask me why I feel this way, cos I can't answer that either.

p/s : Even if you are mad at me, pick up ?

Holy fucking Jesus.

I'm still feeling the effects of last night in my system.
And I do believe I'm partially deaf.
I'm totally lacking sleep, but fuck was it worth it.
Finally left the house at 6, after hours of Sa and Jeremy changing their minds.
Parked at RSC, and walked all the fucking way.
It took us 16minutes, I timed myself. Heh.

Here Chello, as promised.
This is what I wore. (:
Got a call from Casey the minute I stepped into the place, which made me look around for him.
And because I am freakishly awesome, I got him PeanutButterCups.
Mmm, but I forgot to take a picture with him. :/
Met up with Joe for abit after, and we did some catching up, I only ever see the boy during Sunburst.
Much love for the passes babe. (;

Brendan.

Aww, Ray so cuuute.

Ash. Love of my life. (:
Lucky I'm in love with my bestfriiiiend.
Sat hippieestyle on the grass with a beer and some ciggies and listened to Nidji together.
I swear, everytime I see them live, I cry.
I had my Bluewhale to wipe my tears away. (:

Cosmic Kitchen was fucking amazing.
Bum wiggled to Cosmic Kitchen and Estranged with Casey.
"Your pigtail's messing with my face."
BAHAHAHAHAHA.

Guess who I bumped into ?
MIKAAA, baybee.

During Flizzows' performance.
The Sexxgodd.
Or as I say; VanillahKillaSex.

Spotted a very familliar face in the crowd, and it was Pixie.
Threw my arm around his waist and,
"Can I bum a fag, honey ?"

Bumped into Justin in the crowd, and spent some time bum wiggling with him.
Ah, he's so cute.
Kept tryna look for Casey, but I couldn't find him anywhere.
Totalleh disappointing.

Gotta fucking love the Tongs' man.
Tiffanyy.

N.E.R.D.
Fucking amazing performers.
And Pharrell is to be my baby daddy.
Big ups to the bwoy on the way he treated the crowd.
Fucking awesome shit.
I do believe N.E.R.D should come here more often.
I swear, Pharrell's gonna get so much ass in KL.

Iman.
He looks totally adorable in the second pic.

Everyone was so fucking tired after N.E.R.D's performance, so I bummed with Kim and the boys.
And we were all talking about how much we wanna rape Pharrell.
Dudes and chicks alike.
HAHA, joke joke.

GUESS WHO ?
Mafakka got the gig and didn't tell me. Tskk.

Korn.
I was too damn tired to go crazy, and I'm not such a big fan, so it didn't really excite me.
Listened to a few songs, then went looking for Kimmy again.
Watched a few more performances before leaving.

Fuck man, I didn't even wanna leave yet, but of course, the night was all about those two.
So whether I had watched what I wanted to or not, we left. Fuckholes.
And I'm bound to complain, and then he goes on and on about how he just so 'sick of it.'
Fuck you man, I'm fucking sick of you. (:
Left with a frown on my tubby face, cos I didn't get a chance to see Casey at all after that. ):

All in all, it was a fucking good night.
And I'd do it over and over again, bodily harm and everything.

This isn't just about you.
You couldn't be more selfish, more thoughtless.
Forget you, I dont need this.

So, Sunburst in two hours.
Somehow I'm only excited about seeing Casey. (:

I could really use a smoke right now, to ease the irritation I feel building up inside me.
Maybe a beer or summin.

Bloody hell, it's so fucking hot.
We're all going to meltttttttttttt.

p/s : I wanna hold your hand. (:

(:

monster. Magic Junkie said:
HAHAHAH . *ahem* Apologies for the outburst of sudden laughter due to suppressed sexual needs. Mmm, maybe, I think so. I figure it's for the best.
He's the guy I've been needing to meet..but I've been so independent that having someone like him just feels weird...
.mandaLOVER;; pretty like drugs._♥. said:
(:
I know what you mean, I do. Its like feeling that you need undies when you already have them on.
.monster. Magic Junkie says:
exactly!
HAHAH love your example.

Hi Rant, hiii.
(:

Really,
That's how you wanna go about it ?
Do it your way then.
I'm fucking through.

I think I'm finally awake.
Jokes aside.

For the past few months, I've been walking around with my head barely attached to my body, it was so high in the clouds.
Right now, I'm feeling like someone just pulled the world from beneath my feet.
I suddenly feel restless, defenseless and downright senseless, and I don't even know what brought all this on.
Maybe the lack of sleep, or maybe the millions of thoughts and questions running through my head. I'm feeling really unsettled, and I'm so fidgety.

I've been forgetting so many things over the past few months, and when I try to think about everything that's happened, good and bad alike, it feels like I don't have a past. I'd like to believe that it's simply me moving on, and putting things behind me, but it's not.
After all the shit I've been through, I'm not supposed to be this way, I'm supposed to be using all that, to build me into something else, something above the norm. But then again, the higher you get, the harder you'll land on your ass.
But instead, I feel like this naive little girl, who's stupid enough to believe that the world is falling in love with her.
In attempt to find some clarity, and some peace of mind, I threw myself into what I thought was right. Oh, how wrong I was.
Being in the eyes of the world was never much fun, especially when you've got no one to fall back on, and you're out there by yourself. I put the blame solely on my stubbornness, and my unwillingness to meet anybody halfway, thinking that I could get along fine by myself. And for awhile, I did just that, failing to see that it's a long road, and I was bound to get lonely.
Walking away from the people who at one point, I thought I couldn't live without, and who were a huge part of my life, and the decisions I made, knowing fully that they did not do the same for me.
After many nights spent pondering, I realised it was time to move on from all of that, simply cos it wasn't doing me any good at all.
It finally got to a point where I was so tired of having my heart broken in so many different ways.
Nodding my way through conversations, simply because justifying myself and my opinions seemed like too much of a task, becoming sick and tired of having to explain that I'm not difficult nor am I rebellious.
Finally stripped of all emotion, almost like a stage actor with no script, I lay down my sword and walked out. And refusing to show that everytime I walked out, a little part of me just evaporated.

I can't help but wonder if in years to come if I'll still be the same person. Indecisive, unsure and just stuck in the middle.
If the different sides of the world, will change my mind and make my decisions for me.
If I'll still be as thick skinned as I am now, or if the ways of the world, and the harshness of everyday life, will finally get the better of me.
Right now, I'm dying to find that peace of mind, some sort of contentment, just to escape the eye of society, and how the world works.
Honestly, all I wanna do, is walk out into the middle of the ocean, feel the sand between my toes, throw my worries to the wind.
Cliched as it sounds, I think I need to be somewhere, where nobody knows my name.
I guess I'm finally sick and tired, of being sick and tired.

;; they crawl in like a cockroach
leaving babies in my bed,
dropping little reels of tape
to remind me that I'm alone,
playing movies in my head
that make a porno feel like home,
there's a burning in my pride,
a nervous bleeding in my brain.

So, my date with Madaan went well. (:

Madaan; My very own Rant Casey.

Take one.

Take two.

Take three.
FINALLY, a decent picture.
We were happy with this one.
(nudge nudge, wink wink)

He picked me up at 1ish, and we listened to Bloc Party on the way to MidValley.
And because I am so freakishly awesome, I brought him Fight Club, with a promise that I would pass American Beauty to him the next time.
After like 3minutes of parking, we forgot where we had parked.
Had initially planned to take a picture of the parking bay, but of course, I forgot.
Walked around for abit, and then sat outside and smoked.
I tried to educate him on what a rempit looked like.
Very very funny.

I taught him the thumb wiggle ankle shake. (: In McDonalds, while we were sitting down.
Promise, not as complicated as it sounds.

I swear, we sat at the Raden staircase for over half an hour, just talking.
(dont ask about the raden staircase, seriously)
Our date, pretty much consisted of sitting around, talking and laughing like two weedies.
It was amazing. (:

When we were about to leave, we realized we had no clue where we had parked. At all.
Paid for parking, and took a ride on as what he calls, 'Stairs.'
In the real world, they are called escalators.
But each to his own.
Found the car, hopped in and started taking pictures.
Finally decided to leave the carpark 15minutes later.

On the way home, I told him all my 'Yo Momma' jokes;

"Yo momma so fat, when she closes her eyes, her eyelids clap."
"Yo momma so fat, she had more chins than the chinese phone book."
"Yo momma so fat, when she went to the store and asked for a waterbed, they threw a blanket over the Atlantic ocean."
"Yo momma so fat, when she jumps into the sea, the whales start singing we are family."

How could you not love me ?
Not so much your mom though..

..it's now 7.05pm, and it's time for us to go for dinner. (:

p/s ; eskimo kisses.

All the boys and all the girls are begging to ifyouseekamy.
(;
Hoyea.

Dear boys & girls,
Meet my new boyfie,
Mark Isaac. C:

Exactly one week to sunburst. (:

Mark.
Stole his ciggie right outta his hand. (:
Which led to our stimulating conversation about hippies, and he let me steal his smokes.

Sathia.
Zayna's mantoy. (;

Meet, Zayna.

Ho Huilyn. Love(r) of my life.

Jude.
HAHAHAHA, mafakka.

Fish.

Myicheal.
I steal all his smokes. (:

Vincent, with his fucking killa hair.

Farah & Iman.
Yea, the Chinese in me shining through.

Boondek, baybee.

Last but not least, Caprice.

So, today was pretty fun.
Spent the morning losing my mind with the family, and getting ready.
Was at Sentul by 11.30.
Bummed with Myicheal and Fiona for abit, and then headed for a smoke.

Sat with the boys, as the girls were annoying me.
Then I realised, I couldn't see shit from where we were.

Watched some of the performances, which were pretty kickass.
Some of the some, anyways.
And Redza has a nice ass. HAHAHA.
Spent most of the time with the boys, so I barely paid attention to anything.
I believe I made a shitload of new friends today.
When I say friends, I mean I stole their smokes. (:
Half the people in the pictures I took, were people I had just met.
Am I productive or what, bitches.
The boys were doing security, and so I got Sean to be my date.
And he did a pretty good job at it too.
Ah, my hottstuff.

Couldn't help but hold my breath as the stink of ugly skank walked right through the entrance.
I mean, wasn't there a notice somewhere that said 'No dogs allowed' ?
Tsk (:

Basically, my day consisted of pretty much nothing but bumming and the installation of lung cancer.
And stealing Caprice's hat, which he made me give back afterwards.
Tskk.
Walked out right before OBS, cos I couldn't be bothered to sit in there and listen.
So I bummed outside with Mark (who is so incredibly ahdorable and from Seaport, not that the latter matters), Myicheal, and two other random kids. (: Funn.

In total honesty, I can barely remember what I did yesterday.
So fuck that, look at the pictures.

Mm, hey.

If I was arsed, I'd upload the pictures, and amuse the lot of you.
But I'm not.
So wait.

Today was fun.
Adn Seany is so adorable.
Tsk.


//edit.
Its not even funny how my butt hurts.
I needa ciggie, homebwoy.

Subway musician : Y'all better be good 'cause Santa Claus only comes once a year. But that's between him and Mrs. Claus.

I am in shape.
Round is a shape.

I have the body of a god. (;
Buddha.

I say, let's do this shit.

Its a google verb game created by this Canadian Youtuber called Meme. Basically, all you have to do is go to Google, and type your name followed by the list of verbs below :

• [Your name] needs
• [Your name] looks
• [Your name] says
• [Your name] wants
• [Your name] does
• [Your name] hates
• [Your name] asks
• [Your name] likes
• [Your name] eats
• [Your name] wears
• [Your name] was
• [Your name] loves

and search for the first result that comes out for each search you make, to see what kinda loony weird stuff comes up, just for the fun of it.

• Amanda needs : to pee.
  
• Amanda looks : nonchalantly at desperate characters.
  
• Amanda says : goodbye.
  
• Amanda wants : a hug and kiss.
• Amanda does : badass hair.
  
• Amanda hates : feet.
  
• Amanda asks : "what would google do ?"
  
• Amanda likes : to write.
  
• Amanda eats : pandas.
  
• Amanda wears : betty blouse.
  
• Amanda was : the birthplace of thomas sterling.
  
• Amanda loves : lesbians.

HAHAHAHA, HOLY JESUS.

Anyways.
Exams aren't all that bad, and I think I'll survive Science. Not so much BM, as I barely studied that shit. I think I ought to stop wasting so much time online.. and sleeping.
Spent the afternoon bumming on the floor and watching tv, then I went to sleep at 5, and I've barely been up for 2hours, and I'm more than ready to go back to sleep.
Crazy fucking thunder just now, literally scared the living daylights out of me.
Ran to Momma and waited for it to stop.
Friendster is gay cos it doesn't allow pictures bigger than two megabytes. How pathetic.
Finally decided to re-customize my blog, as it was getting puhreety bleak.
I've got Literature tomorrow, and if I don't do well, Pn. Sabina will definitely have my head.
Tsk, so much pressure.
And History, balls.

I'm actually starting to think the world is out to get me, how funny is that.
Momma also is adamant that I'm on drugs, cos I sleep too much, and I've got crazy ass moodswings.
When the real fact is just that I'm a growing girl. (:

My fingers smell like burgers, or is it just my brain telling my nose to think my fingers smell like burgers ?
Hmm, these questions do puzzle me.
HAHA. Howell, live and let live.

You know how sick I am of coming online ?
Think.. 13yearold girls who still get Malibu Barbie for birthdays and christmas.
That's a whole new level of sick, if you ask me.

Random conversations with the love of my life;

Chello, Me.
Dude, so what ? I don't know if I'm his girlfriend or not. So freaking confusing man.
I don't think it counts if you don't know about it..
But still.. he cut off his fingernail.
WHAT ?

Dude, now we don't even have to ask boys if they're single, we can just look at their fingernails.
Yea, and then we can say, "Oh you're single !" "How did you know ?" "You have short fingernails."

Ah, you gotta love us.

I could actually go to sleep right now. It's such a lazy day.
I'm feeling very hazy.

Random statement;
Sweetie, you're beyond pathetic.
I'm laughing at your attempts to hurt me.
Really ? That's the best you can do ?
I actually feel bad for you.
There are no words to describe how disgusting you really are, my skin quite literally crawls when I look at you.
Grow up, you ugly piece of social trash.
Just cos you get off on what I do. (;

Some people are just so pathetic, no ?

Anywhoo, I've been online like, 3 times today. So it's pretty damn boring.
I'm gonna go do something productive.
LIKE SMOKE A CIGGIE !

I'm so goddamn cranky.
I don't even think this is funny anymore.

I feel like I'm going to freaking break something.
I'm not only cranky.
I'm feeling major rage, like screaming rage.

To top it off, penispeople are annoying me.
Like crazy annoying me.
I'm not your girlfriend, get freaking over it. (:

MiCHELLE.sickheart says:
Mana pegi ? I was worried man, I thought the crocs got you !
.mandamyLOVER;; echo lawrence && marla singer._♥. says:
No, but the red injuns trydta get me.
MiCHELLE.sickheart says:
Injuns ?
.mandamyLOVER;; echo lawrence && marla singer._♥. says:
Indians.. duh.
MiCHELLE.sickheart says:
Those italian making freaks.
*pasta, I mean.
.mandamyLOVER;; echo lawrence && marla singer._♥. says:
ITALIAN MAKING FREAKS.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
MiCHELLE.sickheart says:
HAHAHAHHAHA.
.mandamyLOVER;; echo lawrence && marla singer._♥. says:
YOU FUCKING SPASTIC LA.
MiCHELLE.sickheart says:
*angrily points finger* YOU LA SPASTIC.
.mandamyLOVER;; echo lawrence && marla singer._♥. says:
*grabs finger and bites*

I love this retard, man.

Oh lookie, rainbooow.
It's name was Slinks.

This was the second shot, after I told Kevin not to stick his hands infrontve the camera.

It's Scott !

Erico.

Kaneyy (:

There's nothing like the end to make you appreciate the beginning.
Talk about mortality sucker punching you.

Mm, hello.
Have got my date with the boys to update on, pictures and all. My Saturday night spent in ISKL. Yada yada. I'm honestly too lazy, but knowing my procrastinator ways, if I don't do it now, I'll never get around to it. I'm awesome like icecubes.

27 / 02 / 09.
Couldn't be arsed to go to school, cos the Japanese were coming, so bummed at home and talked to Eric online. Got Kane to pick me up, cos I was about to lose my mind from being home alone for so long. Headed to Gasing, and bummed at Maxwell with the boys. Totally regretted not buying smokes before going cos Gasing is gay and doesn't sell my smokes. Met this lady who used to work with Daddy which was pretty cool as she was telling me all about him over a few smokes. Nice chick, really.
Kevin was going through the camera with this wide eyed look, which made me walk around to see what he was doing. Left me in fucking stitches, bugger. He refused to take a proper picture with me after that, cos he claimed to be 'traumatized.'
Hopped onto the back of Kane's motorbike, and was home by 5.

28 / 02 / 09.
Sat at home till 2ish, then headed off to Grandma's place. Had to go pick up her car all the way in Bukit Jalil. Old lady got a Viva,which kinda made me smile as just a few days ago, Madaan had told me he had a Viva. The colour, really hurts my eyes, but whatevs. Had something to eat before hijacking Uncle Bib's room to get ready. Was in ISKL by 6.30.
Talked to Shannya and Isaac before heading into the theatre. The whole thing, was phenomenal. The drama reminded me a lil of Fight Club, and the dance was awesome shit. Made me happy.
Like, rubmytummy patmyhead kinda happy, and you know you don't get any happier than that.
Was home by 12, and practically died on my bed.

01/ 01 / 09.
Was up at the buttcrack of dawn, and hid under my covers so Momma wouldn't wake me up to go to church. But in vain.
Headed for class, and went slightly apeshit with Nindy and Dhista.
Almost punched that obese shit in the face when she brought up out supposed 'private' meeting. Private, my ass.
Saw Evan after yonks of the boy being in hiding, and gave him a biiiiig hug. The genius practically picks me up ! Giggled like idiots before heading home.
Watched TV for the rest of the day.

It's now 6.30pm, and I just got the weirdest texts ever. Totalleh made my day.

Evan :
"My love, my love, my love. Goooooooooood morning to you ! My love, ooh, my love. The passion of Justin Timberlake !"

Almost died laughing, and replied :
"Holy Jesus, you're like, an American Idol failure!"

Followed by a text from J :
"Hello beautiful. I just had a dream about you. Weirdest dream I ever fucking had. We owned a weed house and it was the era of the hippies again. Only it was really extreme, and I swear I was trippin out on shrooms or something, cos your arm fell off, and it grew back again. But, all this is weird, cos I'm clean and I think I still have my virginity. PEOPLE CAN'T TAKE THAT IN YOUR DREAMS RIGHT ? Oh Jesus.

Fuck, they made my day.
I should go. Had training for ages today, and I think I left my legs at school.
I'm currently texting Rant Casey. (:

;; Love is spiders on the edge,
and we're hanging by a thread,
connected to the other end of this,
twisted frequency I've spun,
but I don't care,
I'd be happy.

Daddy got a kick ass new phone.
It's pretty damn cool, kinda like a PDA, but not really.
Awesome shiznit.
Cost the man 400bucks, but it's some shitty chinese thing, so it's definitely not on my list. (:

It's Munzir's birthday today. (:
I love you, babe.
You're amazing, really really.

I think it's time for a haircut.What do you think, Ashweni Carolline Luques ? (:

I'm quite literally counting down the days to Sunburst.
Not all that excited about the ICC concert though, just that I'll be seeing people that I haven't seen in yonks. *beams.

I currently have the hugest headache ever, from just taking a sip of Daddy's coffee.
It's beyond me how people can drink that dishwater.

This is going to be a post consisting of me doing nothing but complain, with every right to.
Why ?
I bruised my back.
I busted my knee.
I have training tomorrow.
I'm getting the flu.
I have to pee, and I'm too lazy to move.
I'm utterly confusuled.
Andndnd, I miss Ash. ):

The last one makes things alot worse.