I've been spending alot of time with Daddy lately, and I'm beginning to realise that he isn't as bad as he used to be.

Love you, Dy. (:

So, I'm a bigger disaster in the kitchen than I thought I was.
And that's definitely saying something.

Once Za wanted to take me on a picnic, and told me to bring food, and I was like,
"Do you have some sort of twisted deathwish ?"

Sam and I decided to bake cookies today. Suhhweet peanut butter and chocolate cookies. Big mistake, you have no idea.
We bought everything we needed; Chocolate chips, and er.. chocolate chips.

Came home, and immediately started getting to work, irritating the life out of everybody while we were at it, of course.
Laid everything out like two professionals (which we aren't, you will come to learn) and began our torture of flour, etc etc.
It was, admittedly, the first time I had ever baked in my life, and I fucking enjoyed myself, and I amused myself so much playing with the cookie dough and peanut butter.
Finally tossed them in the oven, after like, ages of going crazy and bursting into insane fits of giggles.
We got flour and dough all over the kitchen, which didn't sit with well with Mother.
Popped our cookies into the oven, and cleaned up the kitchen while waiting.
12minutes later, a burning smell is wafting throughout the house.
Turns out, our cookies are burnt.
It was, by far, one of the most depressing moments of my life.

I spent the next half hour scraping the burnt bits of the cookies off, and munching on crumbs.

I'm never baking again, it hurts my heart too much.
So next week, I'M COOKING.
(I kid. I will, no doubt, burn the whole off Pantai Hillpark down.)

This comes under one of the worst Saturday's in time.

Ya'lls know that VHS or Beta are in KL tonight, right ?
Performing at the Heineken Green Room.

Well, Daddy got invites to the thing, and right now, he's getting ready to head over there.
And then, he's spending the rest of the night with the boys from VHS or Beta, and he said I might be able to meet them.
So I lost my head, and went apeshit.
So I asked Mummy if it'd be alright if I went out with Daddy tonight for dinner with the boys.
And she loses her fucking nerve, and tells me to fuck off, and not to ask her for anything.
I asked her why she wouldn't let me go, and her excuse was that she hates my dad.
What the fuck does that have to do with me ?

If she's got issues with the man, don't fucking take it out on me.
So much for wanting to be happy, cos she knows that VHS or Beta are one of my favourite bands.

When Sa was 12, she let her have off in the middle of the fucking night to meet Blue, at fucking Zouk.
Do you see why I'm so fucking pissed now ?

Fuck this, I'm going whether she likes it or not.

Hi, Kaneyy.
I miss you, my motorcycle riding gummy bearrr.

So, I'm seriously considering getting my tonsils out cos they're seriously starting to fuck me up.
I can barely breathe cos they're pretty much sticking together. So I guess they might just suffocate me. Joy unbounded.

So, I'm definitely going to be in debt by the time I'm like 20.
I've been spending waaay too much on my phonebill (result of playing therapist with Chello. If I were her therapist, I'd have a Hummer by now. HAHA)
It's kinda funny how my relationship advice makes so much sense when someone else is doing it, and not me. So much for practicing what you preach aye.

So I got my Science paper back a few days ago, and I did pretty alright compared to the others. 'Teacher' is not as such the brightest crayon in the whole box, dig ?
Question was;
State one function of a drug used in the medical field.
My answer; As a local anesthesia.
Fool marked it incorrect !
So, the conversation went as such, quote;
"Dude, how could you mark me wrong ? My answer is way more logical and better constructed than yours."
"Atcheli, I taktau what your answers means. Pelik betol jawapan you. Apa annastacia ?"
"Well, Annatascia is my godmother's name, but ANESTHESIA is sedatives. The thing they put in you before you go into surgery ? MORPHINE."
"To tahan sakit ke ?"
"Okay, let me break it down for you. My answer is right, and I know that it is. So give me my marks, and we can stop this pathetic excuse for a science IN ENGLISH conversation."

Makes me wonder where in the hell we get our teachers from.

Moving on.
Yesterday was a good day.
Got home from school, and headed to KL with Daddy cos we had to go to the Pineapple Concerts office, to pick up the F1 tickets. Unfortunately, the tickets had run out, and Sa got some holiday instead. So much for Jamiroquai, man.
Hpefully Dy will be able to get us tickets, anyway.
Headed to Sect14 after cos he was meeting some business partners.
Sat around and had something to eat at this place called Pappa Rich.
Met Jeff, who's fucking awesome and is very into polygamy.
Very interesting to listen to the things he has to say, sexual as they are.
Amusing fucker, he is.
And he's very interested in listening to me talk.
Headed home after like 4hours, and then bummed for the rest of the day.

Decided to not go to school today, cos my tonsils are fucked, as I said.
Howell.
I just remember I need to go get some smokes.
Have a good one, mafakkas.

So, here we are, yet again.
At the starting line.
I don't think I'm playing your game another time.
I've had enough of going round and round in circles.
Sorry homebwoy, I'm actually happy.

Hi !

As I type this, Four Years Strong angsty version of Love Song is playing on repeat in my head. It is, as you say in English, bloody annoying.I'm hoping that Hawthorne Heights will take over soon, or I'll lose what's left of my marbles.

Just realised I forgetted about my date with Priyy (which ended up being this huge ass group thing) We've been putting our date off for ages now, and so we decided to us the last day of holidays to bum. Priyy snuck out of band camp. HAHAHAHA.
I had to wait for her for like an hour, before deciding to grab a bite, and I swear, I almost fell asleep waiting. The woman finally arrived, and then we walked around after having a smoke.
Bumped into Redza (whose ass was on full display for Priy & I. HAHAHA, loveyoulahh), and watched the boys play pool before opening up a table, and playing pool with Boondek.
Holy fuck, I'm so bad at that shit, but I had fun kinda but not really kicking Boons bummy.
(Kay, I lied. She kicked my ass real good, like totally buttwhipped, but I have a rep to upkeep.)
Jumped into a cab. then realising that my cabbie was well drugged up.
Was home by 4.30, and texted Casey for the rest of the day.

Okay, hi, foreal.
Going back to school today, made me feel like I hadn't been off all week. Wasn't particularly looking forward to zombie-ing around the house at 6 in the godddamn morning, but on the notsobright side, I can sleep the whole day away. And I'm hopefully seeing Casey tomorrow.

On another note, there's this chick, who is quite literally the epitome of pathetic. She went to Cambodia for a week, and came back speaking like a Texan. How in the fuck did that even happen ? Fuck, we laughed so hard. Heggyheggyhoghog. I gotta stop being such an asshole. But it was fucking CAMBODIA, not fucking Texas.

I'm tryna get Daddy to score me some F1 tickets, cos I wanna catch Jamiroquai. I've been hearing that Oasis is headed to Singapore. I know how Indonesia feels about us now. But if they do come, I'm only going to watch 'Wonderwall.' Admittedly, Cartels' rendition brings me to tears, but Oasis is all time classic.

Grabbed the first chance I got to quit the cheer squad, (which I was threatened into, ay'lls know that ain't my thing, at all. Its weird and random, almost as random as drinking tea if you;re not British. HAHA, thanks Neal).
Momma wasn't please, as Sa sustained her knee injury from being a cheerleader (willingly, what fresh hell ?). I was threatened physically and academically, Arts wise, if you catch my drift. After giving up the fight, I felt like I had sold my soul to the Devil himself.
Okay, not really. I just dig the dramatic effect.

Oh, and about everyone being mad at me ? Yea, I was right.
Okay, not everyone, but it might as well have been, cos one of the most important people were mad at me.
Sorrry Casey, sayang me ? ):
I'll make it up to you, thumb wiggle ankle shake. And you know what that means to me.
Hey, guess what ?
Echo misses you. (:

Texts;
Casey (pretending to be some stranger). Me.
"Hey Amanda. I saw you at Sunburst yesterday, and I think you are really hot. I went through alot of trouble getting your number. I would like to get to know you better."
"Hahaha.. okaaay. But who are you ?"
"My name is Buster Casey, but my friends call me Rant."
"I see. I do believe I've already got my Casey. Sorry."
"Why don't you call him then ?"
*dials Caseys' number*

Shudda seen me laugh when I read the first text, man.
I was in the middle of complaining to anyone who would listen (Reuben& Vanilla) about how I hate people, and the way the world works, and how I'm gonna be a carmalite nun.
(I'm seriously reconsidering the last one though, but to an extent.)
The life of a nun is clean and chaste, and frankly, I am none of the above. Well, maybe I'll convert and become a liberal hippie, meaning I will shave, and be bald as a baby(neck down). I'll never feel unloved ever again, because awesome tie-dye clad people will shower me with peace and love.
I think I've gotten slightly carried away.
Next thing you know, I'll be telling you that I have a friend who thinks he's part unicorn, and a dog that eats live birds.
Hang on, everything's gone slightly dejavu-ish.

I love you.
Hey Chello.
It totally sucks that you're going through shit right now, and the fact that I'm not there to kick anybody's ass is just plain shit (I know he's technically on my side of the world, but I'd like to believe that if I were to go to Sarawak, he'd be there too. Cos frankly, I wanna kick his ass, cos he's a butthole for doing what he did.) I'm sorry that all this is fucking with your head, and I'd really like to say he's a waste of your time and not good enough for you, but it's evident that he means something to you. You know I love you with every ounce of my being, simply cos you're my bestfriend, and you mean the world to me. I've got your back no matter what, promise.
Gimme a call when you feel like the sun ain't shininng no more.
Ily. <3.

So, I'm more than likely to fail every subject I'm taking. I'm pretty much buttfucked. Hard.
Momma's not gonna be happy, but I'm not all that freaked out, as it's the first exam, and I'm still getting used to all this new format shit. I know I've gotta study my fat arse off if I really wanna do what I wanna do. I was 5marks short of passing my fucking BM paper. Tskk.

I've got huge bruises all over my body and they hurt like a motha. It actually hurts laugh, cos everytime I do, I feel this searing pain ripping through me. I can barely walk, and I feel like a fucking idiot, cos I gotta keep doubling over every few steps.
Thanks, really. This is what I needed, a lil display of love.

Kay, though I'd love to stay and talk more bollocks, Im feeling the need to crack open a beer, and have a ciggie.
I've got a fucking killer headache.
Vicodin, anyone ?
*wiggles eyesbrows.*
I joke, I joke.

p/s : come to think of it, I'm aching.
You're rapidly becoming very very important to me.

Why the hell do I feel like everyone hates my guts right now ?
I keep feeling that everyone's mad at me, and my dream did not help either.

I'm all sad and shit, cos I think Casey's mad at me.
Are you ?
I kinda miss you.

I've made my decision.
I'm going to be a Carmalite nun.
No one can hurt me then, cos I won't be able to talk, and I can't communicate with the outside world. AND I'M NOT ALLOWED TO BE WITH A MAN.
I wonder if I can have a kid though.. I hear it's not encouraged.
This is fucken trippy man. I cant deal.

Don't ask me why I feel this way, cos I can't answer that either.

p/s : Even if you are mad at me, pick up ?

Holy fucking Jesus.

I'm still feeling the effects of last night in my system.
And I do believe I'm partially deaf.
I'm totally lacking sleep, but fuck was it worth it.
Finally left the house at 6, after hours of Sa and Jeremy changing their minds.
Parked at RSC, and walked all the fucking way.
It took us 16minutes, I timed myself. Heh.

Here Chello, as promised.
This is what I wore. (:
Got a call from Casey the minute I stepped into the place, which made me look around for him.
And because I am freakishly awesome, I got him PeanutButterCups.
Mmm, but I forgot to take a picture with him. :/
Met up with Joe for abit after, and we did some catching up, I only ever see the boy during Sunburst.
Much love for the passes babe. (;

Brendan.

Aww, Ray so cuuute.

Ash. Love of my life. (:
Lucky I'm in love with my bestfriiiiend.
Sat hippieestyle on the grass with a beer and some ciggies and listened to Nidji together.
I swear, everytime I see them live, I cry.
I had my Bluewhale to wipe my tears away. (:

Cosmic Kitchen was fucking amazing.
Bum wiggled to Cosmic Kitchen and Estranged with Casey.
"Your pigtail's messing with my face."
BAHAHAHAHAHA.

Guess who I bumped into ?
MIKAAA, baybee.

During Flizzows' performance.
The Sexxgodd.
Or as I say; VanillahKillaSex.

Spotted a very familliar face in the crowd, and it was Pixie.
Threw my arm around his waist and,
"Can I bum a fag, honey ?"

Bumped into Justin in the crowd, and spent some time bum wiggling with him.
Ah, he's so cute.
Kept tryna look for Casey, but I couldn't find him anywhere.
Totalleh disappointing.

Gotta fucking love the Tongs' man.
Tiffanyy.

N.E.R.D.
Fucking amazing performers.
And Pharrell is to be my baby daddy.
Big ups to the bwoy on the way he treated the crowd.
Fucking awesome shit.
I do believe N.E.R.D should come here more often.
I swear, Pharrell's gonna get so much ass in KL.

Iman.
He looks totally adorable in the second pic.

Everyone was so fucking tired after N.E.R.D's performance, so I bummed with Kim and the boys.
And we were all talking about how much we wanna rape Pharrell.
Dudes and chicks alike.
HAHA, joke joke.

GUESS WHO ?
Mafakka got the gig and didn't tell me. Tskk.

Korn.
I was too damn tired to go crazy, and I'm not such a big fan, so it didn't really excite me.
Listened to a few songs, then went looking for Kimmy again.
Watched a few more performances before leaving.

Fuck man, I didn't even wanna leave yet, but of course, the night was all about those two.
So whether I had watched what I wanted to or not, we left. Fuckholes.
And I'm bound to complain, and then he goes on and on about how he just so 'sick of it.'
Fuck you man, I'm fucking sick of you. (:
Left with a frown on my tubby face, cos I didn't get a chance to see Casey at all after that. ):

All in all, it was a fucking good night.
And I'd do it over and over again, bodily harm and everything.

This isn't just about you.
You couldn't be more selfish, more thoughtless.
Forget you, I dont need this.

So, Sunburst in two hours.
Somehow I'm only excited about seeing Casey. (:

I could really use a smoke right now, to ease the irritation I feel building up inside me.
Maybe a beer or summin.

Bloody hell, it's so fucking hot.
We're all going to meltttttttttttt.

p/s : I wanna hold your hand. (: